All In Time I Will See

2011-08-03T17:42:00.002+08:00

日有所思，夜有所梦

往往白天所想的，到了夜晚都会梦到。
梦有好与坏，是你本身这没看待。
对我而言，好与坏的梦，我都会接受。
因为在梦里，会偶尔梦到你从来也不会遇到的事情。或者会梦到你现实中想要实现的事。
比如，梦到你的白马王子，所爱的人，你不喜欢的人（可以痛骂他），一些吃惊的事，
或者梦到你的亲人离开，这样在现实中你才会珍惜他们。

想念你在想我

2011-08-01T20:33:00.003+08:00

慢慢的被取代，
我在吃醋吗？
我的心有点不好受，
我又能做些什么呢？

我知道我们两已不能回到过去
把过去当这是回忆
从爱人变朋友
从朋友变陌生人

你知道，你知道吗？
我多没想回到从前
回到当初的时候
有你，有我

我知道我们两已不能回到过去
把过去当这是回忆
你的一切都变的很陌生
你爱的人以不是我

想念你的关心
想念你的拥抱
想念你的味道
想念你的吻
想念你在想我

2011-07-26T20:38:00.000+08:00

How does it feel to know you never have to be alone when you get home?
There must be someplace here that only you and I could go , So I can show you how I feel.

Departure

2011-06-26T12:08:00.001+08:00

The time is now I can finally see
Through these walls that you built
This is the hole you call the truth
We've had enough of these useless ties
We've seen enough of what we could be
This has become something we've never believed
Slowly but surely it'll take us all away

I remembered what you said to me
Everything will be the same like it used to be
Now I know what I mean to you
If I can't do everything that you want me to

If I knew the truth, then I wouldn't be here
And now that you've got, all that you always wanted
This place isn't what, you said to be so beautiful

Running away, nothing has been done
Shattered dreams and broken hearts
The time has come to recover what we've lost
The time has come to take back what was ours

Just like the words, we used to say
Just like the battles, we fought before
Just like our bodies, and our souls
Fade away, just like our memories
Fade away, just like our families

Over and over

When will we love, before it's too late?

我快乐吗？

2011-05-18T01:21:00.003+08:00

很感动，眼泪流下。在leo走了之前，他跟我说＂希望你天天开心哦＂。
我可以吗？

passes by story

2011-05-15T19:18:00.002+08:00

Every scene, every episode,
they never fade away even though they had passed by however long ago.

story will end,
the only thing that we could do is...
lock the precious memories in our heart.

To the fullest

2011-05-08T17:46:00.002+08:00

It's alright to waver in the wind,
Just to know that the wind will stop.
When it's raining, look for a friend,
You are not alone.
When love comes, embrace it.
And when it leaves, let it go.
When you accept something you can't avoid,
it comes with a gift.

I just wanna enjoy life to the fullest and live with no regrets.
Whatever things come along my life, be it good or bad. I just take it as a learning process. (:

Not too bad?

2011-03-06T02:01:00.002+08:00

Day 4 of work yday. Not too bad! I finally gotten my 1st sales! Sold one of the house brand watch (SINN)! So I got my commission started. Well, a good start? Heh. Of cos with the help of my colleagues! :D my feet doesn't hurt so badly now but still painful! Or maybe because my endurance for my feet became better? Or numb already? Heh.

Is late already!! Gonna sleep :))

good day for later too!! :D

I can make it through (:

2011-03-04T14:32:00.004+08:00

Finally my off today. I am so tired.
I don't know is this job suitable for me or not?

1st day of work was good, colleagues are friendly and fun. It motivated me and makes me getting more interested in watches. Definitely the heels don't do me good. Somehow i miss Adidas's uniform very much! My adizero!

2nd day of work was not that good, colleagues isn't that friendly anymore or rather i too sensitive? Getting more stress~ STILL my heels didn't do me good, getting more and more painful that i can't even walk probably. Too painful till i went and get myself a pair of sandals at F21.

3rd day of work was worst! Very shag and tired. colleagues there can be realistic? Is not the same as Adidas's peeps. I was thinking why i wanna go through this? I can just continues to work at Adi, thats where my comfort zone is. I know everything, no need to see people's face to teach me new thing. Instructed by people to do this and that. Why i wanna zhi chao ku chi? But well, is a good learning process. Without all this, how can i grow? How can i be stronger? I know i can do it! I have to ENDURE! I don't care if my colleague unhappy with me or whatever. I just do what i supposed to do. WHy go and be unhappy the mistake i made? I'm new and still learning. Im learning from my mistake.

Well, just hope that the next few days will be great before i head to my TPE trip!

Great day today! :D

2011-02-08T03:38:00.002+08:00

How crazy to blog at this time?
When I can't find anyone to talk about it.
My life story, the only one here for me.
Hear me and feel me.

I'm very much awakes after I read the text.
My heart beats stopped for a sec.
The feelings was different this time round.
I did not tear at all, Perhaps I'm controlling.
I'm just lost for word at that point of time.
I'm trying not to let my feelings and thoughts run deep,
cos" I know I might lost comtrol of my tear.
I hate to tear, tell me who like?
I'm tired to tear and be emo.
Anybody tell me what should I do?

Come heal a broken heart, will you?
Make it into wonders again.
A steel heart that I ask for....

2011-02-01T16:25:00.003+08:00

Rachel just left Singapore yesterday. Perhaps I will see her next month, next next month? No matter how hard we endure our tear, tears just flow down from our eyes. She indeed a joy to us! Well, is just part of life! Let's move on!!! :D

Sometimes I wonder, will I tears during my last day of work? But I'm sure that I seriously and definitely will miss working at Adidas! I do can't bear to leave but I have to move on. My last day of work will be on 24th Feb.

And with a smile I will say my goodbye.

2011-01-26T18:55:00.002+08:00

要飞就不回头

I'm kind of excited about it yet scared.
Decided to move on.
Oh let me have the heart and mind to perseverance through.
Though I know it might be tough
but I know if I put in effort sure can do it!!

Cross Road

2011-01-24T13:17:00.004+08:00

I don't know what is ahead for me?
Confused and lost.
I can't bear to leave my confort zone but yet I have to.
I have to move on to somewhere different.
But deep in my heart,
I'm scared to change.
I'm scared to adapt,
I'm scared to fall,
I'm scared that I can't make it
and So afraid that my life is falling apart.
So many, so many doubts.

But well, I have to move on.
Without trying, I will never know.
There is a will, there will be a way.
So now just keep my fingers crossing that everything will go well! (:

2011-01-01T03:58:00.000+08:00

BYE 2010, HELLO 2011!!

It will be a great year ahead! Learnt from the past so this new year I will make sure I will not repeat the same mistake! (: I'm quite excited for this brand new year. I will change my job most probably march I will be free from job. Thinking to go for a holiday.. Tpe, hkg or Thai? Then after that holiday I will most probably also head down to KL alone to have a short getaway for myself. I jus need some break to rest. Slow down my footstep n view the world differently. Heh (: I jus can't wait, I'm real tired.

2010-12-15T09:51:00.006+08:00

jogging in the morning was shiok. Completed full 7 rounds! Soon I will complete 10 rounds. Think is crazy. But I jus love to run and run and run till no ending. Is very tiring but I did enjoyed. Only through jogging, it gives me a time for reflection. What I need to change? What things pull me down? Those few weeks of happiness? Asking myself what really makes me happy? Telling myself to forget the unhappiness and move on! Many many things on my mind that I wanna do! I always tell myself "no time, no time" but time is actually I can create for myself and see if I have the heart to do it or not? Maybe it will be my new year revolution?

To be continues.. Busy.

2010-11-30T02:33:00.000+08:00

How silly? (:

2010-11-26T23:27:00.000+08:00

最害怕每天的天黑
但是天总会黑
人总要离别
谁也不能永远陪谁
而孤单的滋味
谁都要面对
不只是你我
会感觉到疲惫

2010-11-14T13:06:00.003+08:00

Felt better after went church in the morning. Whatever PS Ruth preached today did spoken to my heart.
The joy of the Lord shall be my strength!

With This song we sang today (我们爱), this few sentance captured me. Nice song indeed! It makes me remember God goodness in my life. I'm not alone, He will always be there for me. "I will never leave or forsake you" Hebrews 13:5. This is His assurance for me (:

心再坚强也不要独自飞翔
只要微笑，只要原谅
有你爱的地方就是天堂

no matter how tough your heart is, we don't fly alone
just smile, just forgive
the place with Your love is heavn

快樂不快樂

2010-11-14T02:49:00.002+08:00

咖啡淡了　是因為冰塊溶了
沒怎麼了　淡了就是淡了
擱在桌上還要不要
不再愛了　是因為感情壞了
你怎麼了　壞了就是壞了
沒有什麼大不了

我們不快樂　快樂後不再快樂
就在最後的一秒　抱了　吻了　哭了
快樂不快樂　沒什麼快不快樂
就在最後的一秒　我們的關係　就這樣了

天亮醒了　是因為心情好了
沒怎麼了　我會愛上另外的人
愛情　大概都這樣了

2010-11-08T00:11:00.000+08:00

一心二用

2010-11-07T16:34:00.000+08:00

Just went through my blog entries and found this post. Which was 2 years plus ago. I didn't know I am so emo! Haha.. So I should be happy that my life now is not as emo as last time! Haha.. (:

http://youaremysunshinee.blogspot.com/2008/03/dishearten.html

2010-11-07T13:52:00.000+08:00

2010 is gonna come to the end in 56 days time. Self reflection, what have I done this almost 1 year? Am I content with what I have now or this year is an awesome year? Well, I would say... I'm happy with this year (: I learnt a lot~ perhaps I should say.. I growth even stronger? Hehe.. Life wasn't as good as years come by, but I thanks God whatever He put me through. What doesn't kill, makes me stronger! I always believe in this! Only I been thru, done it then I will appreciate things in life. Cherish my family, friends n loved ones!

To be continue, have to start work le (:

2010-10-30T10:40:00.002+08:00

counting down my bday in 13 hrs time (: (cos I was borned at 830am)

Well, as I was young, present Seem to be the one that I'm waiting for, but as we growth older, present doesn't seem to be the one anymore. It's actually the greetings from friends/ loved ones that will warm my heart and it's also means that they remember my bday (: that will be the best present I will have! :D

I'm happy that I able to celebrate my birthhday with all my loved ones this week. Different frens I met this week. I felt So loved yaa. Nothing beat the feeling that they actually rem my bday (: I loveeeeeee my beloved ones :)

And HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME in another 13 hrs!!!

2010-10-13T22:29:00.002+08:00

Worst day ever today! So pissed~ can't wait to leave! 3 more months and I will say bye bye to them! Where does the joy had gone to? Miss the past when I don't feel a burden or drag to do what I'm doing now. Even if they offer me of what I wants, i don't give a damn abt it anymore! I jus don't wanna see them everyday of my life now n I don't wanna waste my time on them! They jus making me so sick! When the heart is cold n dried, there is nothing I can do anymore! I used to always tell myself to look at the bright side, don't think so much. Everything will be over n it's tempory only! After the rain, there is always rainbow! U reap what u sow. But I don't think so much anymore. In this case, I reap but I don't sow. After rain, there is no rainbow! I don't wanna waste time reapinG anymore! I need to get out of it and exprience new thing! I just wanna enjoy what I'm doing now. I don't want to everyday have this fear in me that worries whether that person is it can be trusted? Will betray me? Meant good for me? Thinking very hard to not to show my emotions? Tell me, what kind of life is it? Soon or later, I will down with depression! Not worthy huh..

Anyway, I just pray these 3 months will pass fast fast and everything will be fine (:

2010-08-29T23:00:00.002+08:00

I'm going back to my private school for teacher's day celebration tomorrow. It's been so long that I can't even remember how is the feeling like to celebrate teacher's day And back to my private school to visit the teachers n the new building! Wondering will the teachers that taught me before still remember me? Cos I haven't been contacting them for so freaking years.. Haha.

Ps Andrew preached today and screened this verse and I absolutely love this verse; Romans 12:9-10

2010-08-26T10:18:00.004+08:00

Sometime is interesting to randomly pick a blog to read and then bookmarked it. Of cos i only pick on those blogs that are interesting! Haha.. After few months later, u view back the blog, u will realised that how much the person who blog has growth up or changed? Few months back I visited this blog and now I just visited this blog again: http://thelaingfamilyblog.blogspot.com/
This family look so lovely and their babies are so cute! The older one call kohen n the youngest one call Judah! Think today is kohen's 2nd birthday!! Ha..Through this blogger, I know more how motherhood will be like.. Quite interesting :)

2010-08-21T23:10:00.002+08:00

One of my friend from my private school had just married. Well, time flies? From photos, she look good and very happy! Hope she really found her happiness. The guy she married used to abuse her but I'm not sure if is still? Just hope that he had changed to treat her well.

So who is next? ChrIStina! One of my good friend since seconday school! Happy for her!

Well, is every girl wish to marry a good man. Hmmm think I missed a 'RiCH' word in between good n man. Hahaha.. No lar, actually rich or not rich doesn't matter. As long as that man treat the woman well! My wish is still the same... Still hoping to marry young and start a family of my own! People may say.. You are still very young! You shlould enjoy life 1st! But I really do wish to have a family of my own. A house of my own so I can decorate it! And give birth to many kids to bring lives to the family! I want my grandma to witness my kids b4 she pass on.. When this day will come? 5 or 10 yrs time? Haha..

2010-08-21T11:22:00.002+08:00

I love waking up on a sat's morning when my family are all at home.
The feeling is different compared to the weekday. It make me dont feel like leaving my house. Saddening, i have to drag my feets to work...

I really can't wait for this year to end and leave my job with my bonus! I can't stand that bunch of suckers that only know how to carry their boss's artificial balls... So what with giving me a shop and im the 1st in-charge, i don't find myself really happy. Perhaps, i have no longer find myself enjoying my job? All my close colleagues had already left.. Only left me alone, who can look for help and trust? Everyone in the company are faker.

Well, i just have to endure till next year! aza aza fighting!! (:

2010-08-18T10:14:00.002+08:00

新不了情

心若倦了泪也干了
这份深情难舍难了
曾经拥有天荒地老
已不见你暮暮与朝朝

这一份情永远难了
愿来生还能再度拥抱
网爱一个人如何厮守到老
怎样面对一切我不知道

回忆过去
痛苦的相思忘不了
为何你还来
拨动我心跳
爱你怎么能了
今夜的你应该明了
缘难了情难了
　缘难了情难了

2010-08-17T10:07:00.002+08:00

A fresh new start.
I will do my very best to prove.
I will make it better in my own unique way.
Distance doesn't matter to me actually.
Infect it give me time to reflect of things in life.

I am still deciding whether should I take up part time course at PSB?
I know it will be very tiring but what can I do with what I have now?
If I don't do it now, I will be forever in this line.. And in furture if I have my own family, I wish to spend my weekends with them!

Think I will update more since I have a long journey to work now. (:

Hello

2010-07-05T01:00:00.001+08:00

My new template!

Alright i will blog more often from now onnnnnn......

Tears in my eyes

2010-06-23T10:34:00.003+08:00

it's much easy to be said than to be done. I am tearing apart, I'm half hearted.
It brought me to tears if this happen. I love him a lot!! Yesh.. deep deep love!! Why am i have to go through this? I hate it!! I hate to hurt my beloved, myself and Daddy YOU!!! What is the best way?

2010-04-18T03:49:00.002+08:00

when you know what is the ending for the story, why still continues and read? When you know, you can't change the fect, why still start it?

heartfelt

2009-09-17T13:37:00.002+08:00

forty eight days, you proved
my heart felt your assurance and i assured
i'm started to depend on you
you will be part of my life

though i know many thing will happen
we definitely will make it through
though i know many will disagree with us
we definitely will make it through

2009-08-24T00:22:00.002+08:00

Oh God help! I'm damn freaking stress. I have a project need to do.. this is the best time to prove myself.

the time spent

2009-08-19T03:05:00.000+08:00

I'm taking time to accept and content with whatever I have. I can feel the efforts and I love the surprise. The surprise do made me smile. I feel comfortable cos you accept me who I AM... All I need is somebody that appreciate me and treat me rightly. (:

2009-08-17T00:04:00.001+08:00

Whoa its been awhile(3 months?) since i last blog.

I been doing pretty fine, enjoying life to the fullest. These 3 months, there was up and down. But nothing can pull me down. I'm still as strong. NO, is.. Stronger?! Haha..

During June, i went to Msia Genting and KL. I was a great 5 days trip. Kinda relax. Just in time i need a break. LOL. I went with my family (my 3rd aunt, her husband and little cousin, my 2nd aunt, my mum and my grandma) It bring we all closer and i got to know them more. Overall, family is still the closer and always be there for me. (: I just can't decrible in words how much i enjoyed the trip. Being with older peoples doesn't make the trip boring. (This was what i thought at first before the trip but is not true)It was still as fun :D How i wish i could stay there longer. Haha. And i spent alot over there! :X

Then recently many of the staffs from my work place leaving and left. I was shaken. I thought of leaving too. Cos i'm kinda sick and tired of the job. Perhaps not the job? Is the peoples there. I'm still unhappy that i didn't get promoted during June when my EX-in-charge thinks that is time for me to get promoted. But my boss JS disagreed so my promotion was postpone or delay. And now my boss thinks that i'm ready for the promotion to SUP this coming Dec. Though i am gonna be promoted, i'm not really that happy already. sigh.

Hmmm... Its been 19 days. Everything thing seem fine. Just some of things i been worried. Well, i know we will make it through the rain. And sunshine will be back ;)

ADIOS!

about LOVE...

2009-05-05T23:27:00.002+08:00

Bible Verses About Love: 1
The second is this: 'Love your neighbor as yourself.' There is no commandment greater than these." Mark 12:31

Bible Verses About Love: 2
Do to others as you would have them do to you. Luke 6:31

Bible Verses About Love: 3
But love your enemies, do good to them, and lend to them without expecting to get anything back. Then your reward will be great, and you will be sons of the Most High, because he is kind to the ungrateful and wicked. Luke 6:35

Bible Verses About Love: 4
"A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. John 8:34

Bible Verses About Love: 5
Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends. John 8:13

Bible Verses About Love: 6
Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil; cling to what is good. Romans 12:9

Bible Verses About Love: 7
Love does no harm to its neighbor. Therefore love is the fulfillment of the law. Romans 13:10

Bible Verses About Love: 8
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away 1 Corinthians 13:4-8

Bible Verses About Love: 9
And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love. 1 Corinthians 13:13

Bible Verses About Love: 10
Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love. Ephesians 4:2

Bible Verses About Love: 11
Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins. 1 Peter 4:8

Bible Verses About Love: 12
Dear friends, let us love one another, for love comes from God. Everyone who loves has been born of God and knows God. 1 John 4:7

Bible Verses About Love: 13We love because he first loved us. 1 John 4:19

Bible Verses About Love: 14
There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love. 1 John 4:18

Bible Verses About Love: 15
Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends. John 15:13

Bible Verses About Love: 16
Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her. Ephesians 5:25

Bible Verses About Love: 17
However, each one of you also must love his wife as he loves himself, and the wife must respect her husband. Ephesians 5:33

Bible Verses About Love: 18
And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity. Colossians 3:14

Be glad when time are bad. LOL

2009-05-02T00:57:00.003+08:00

Don't cry beacuse it's over, smile because its happened (:

will be blogging SOOON ok. im now very tired, gonna sleep! ciao.

你看不见的地方

2009-04-22T15:04:00.002+08:00

你温暖手心曾以为还能握紧
这段爱我们的飞翔
终于到了降落的地方
你走得那么匆忙我来不及想
想你给我的希望如何遗忘

爱那么漫长而我不是你的方向
我还在试着遗忘
忘掉那曾爱你的时光
假装不悲伤
假装我可以很坚强
我没有那么懂事和善良
故意迷失你的方向
藏在心里你看不见的地方

一个人唱歌一个人学习快乐
爱还在所以心痛着
整个晚上我孤单醒着

我一个人的路上时间变好长
我沿着回忆的方向
记忆那美丽的时光
曾经你在我身旁

It gonna be alright soon (:

2009-04-22T01:17:00.002+08:00

I'm so much better now. I mean my emotion. The past few days was 'hell'... SO now i'm better.

车窗外的雨下着
我在红灯前停着
下一刻踩下油门我想该跨过了

会难过是肯定的
失去爱情的痛彻
我懂得
是因为认真才如此难割舍
你给过的好我会一直记得
笑过哭过我都曾经很快乐

你走后孤单不算什么
两个人我们曾更寂寞
爱情在时间里遗失了
我不想再僵持着

告别了两个人的寂寞
天空很灰却比较辽阔
不必再拥抱时感觉忐忑
失去后比拥有踏实了
感觉自由

该忘的我忘了回忆是好的
该记的我记得爱过就算值得
明天是自己的我会更快乐
得到的失去了扯平了

其实很爱你

2009-04-20T00:39:00.002+08:00

离开不会太悲伤
有些心情该释放
直到眼泪它自己落下
才发现骗不了自己
其实很爱你

现在学着去遗忘
躲开有你的地方
回忆被谁放在书架上
把他从最高的地方落下

感动越是深刻
寂寞就越伤人喔
每个人的心里都
会有一段伤痕
像白纸的天真
反复被你伤的好深
相爱不需要理由
离开也没有理由挽留

heartbreak

2009-04-18T23:50:00.000+08:00

Hanging on, no more...

....

2009-04-17T02:21:00.002+08:00

i'm hanging on.

Am i part of your life?

2009-04-10T01:12:00.004+08:00

你的世界如此辽阔, 我会在哪个角落?

2009-04-04T00:08:00.002+08:00

Well, everything is fine. Talked things out (:

Every RS sure have ups and downs, at the end of the day is actually stronger the RS and perhaps better understanding?

Thanks for being honest. (:
It takes time to build confidence in this RS.
All we need to do is stay commitment, trust and honest to this RS.

TL&C

2009-03-30T01:09:00.004+08:00

I just need surprise, romantic and your tender love and care toward me.

How many times have you fetch me from work when u knock off earlier than me or off?
All i remember is once at work and the other one is at mrt. thats all?
I always will look out outside work place to wish you will come and surprise me to fetch me from work but you didnt.. Even if just waiting by the mrt, i would be more than happy.. sigh. all is my foolish thinking.

I can do it despite of how tire i am (jus bcos i wanna make you happy and feel sweet), why cant you?

doing something sweet can make me (:
can you do it for me?

L O V E

2009-03-24T00:55:00.001+08:00

陪你熬夜聊天到爆肝也没关系
陪你逛街逛成扁平足也没关系
超感谢你让我重生整个o r z
让我重新认识 love (l o v e! l o v e!)

恋爱i n g happy i n g
心情就像是坐上一台喷射机
恋爱i n g 改变 i n g
改变了黄昏黎明
有你都心跳到不行

BINTAN

2009-03-23T23:22:00.002+08:00

Woooho! Bintan's trip tml!
Will be away for 3 days 2 night!!!!

Bask under the sun and enjoy the accompany of friends.
I cant wait!!!

BUT im gonna miss my dear dear very muchie!
After come back from bintan which is 26th March is our 1 month anniversary!
hooos, thats fast? isnt it?

it can never be easy

2009-03-22T01:52:00.002+08:00

it can never be easy
it can never be easy
it can never be easy

sickness, go away!

2009-03-17T00:51:00.001+08:00

Sick already. aww... And i miss my boy a lot. 2 bloody days!

hou gua zhu lei arhh!

They're my Joy.

2009-03-16T00:03:00.003+08:00

Surprise for Cris...

I just simply loveeee them!

I misses those time when we girls always hang around. Now we seldom go out that often maybe perhaps all of us are busy with our own thing in life. Hmmm... we should plan someday to go out!

Didn't meet dear dear today, i misses him. Heehe. Realised we been meeting each other almost everyday. Though is tiring but i enjoyed the time i spent with him. (: Counting down to more more more!!

omg, im falling sick....

every hours; every mintues; every seconds i spend with you is a bliss :)

Happy 2nd weeks!

2009-03-12T02:43:00.001+08:00

Our 15 Daysss

One of the best pic we took so far that i loveeee...

So far so good. Honeymoon period. Haha. Basically its all about TRUST as what i can say. My mind can run wild and thought about negative thoughts but at the end of the day, all i can do its just trust. We just started so we need to give each other more time to adapt to each other life. I don't want to be a unreasonable girlfriend. I want to be a good girlfriend that he don't feel stress over it. In oder to do this, i feel i need to have a bigger heart. Haha. (: I always trying my best to be a good girlfriend, hope i have do it well. I don't want to be other girlfrends out there trying to change their boyfriend. Cos i like the way my boyfriend is... thought sometime he put me in roller coaster feeling.

7 days

2009-03-05T13:40:00.002+08:00

Happy 1 week, dear dear!

Counting down for more!. :)

how sweet.

2009-02-28T02:30:00.002+08:00

WE WILL OVERCOME IT (:

Special day

2009-02-26T22:41:00.002+08:00

26Th Feb 09, which is today marked the day.

I don't know how to express my feelings in words. The feeling can be sweet yet vexed. I stayed at home the whole day and been thinking about it whether i have made the right decision? I've so much fear in me that i can't have a peace of mind. My Parents made it more worse by adding more salt on it. Well, i'm old enough to handle all this and i know what i'm doing. Hmmm, perhaps i just don't have the confidence in myself. Why would i always feel this way when come to this kind of thing? I doubt, i worry, i fear and have no confidence about it. I can feel very happy and sweet today but the next day i will start to worry about it. OKAY, whatever. Since i had started it... I should have confidence in it. Whatever it is.. COMe WHAT MAY...

are you gonna be my sunshine that will always make me happy when my skie are grey?

ngo gua zhu lei

Are You Happy?

2009-01-25T00:49:00.003+08:00

How's 2009 so far? Hmmm... disappointed? cos most of the things i wanan see about myself, i havent fulfill yet. There's many things i need to change about myself.

Candy asked me one simple question and i can't answer her. She asked, " Are You Happy?" I thought for awhile and i dont know what to say... If a person who's happy in her/his life, it will take less than 5 second to answer it. Hope by next time when someone ask me this same question again i will answer it fast.

Yesterday my mum made me stay at home to clear my room. Threw away 3-4 bigs bags of things... But still my cupboards is still full of things. Haha.

As i was packing, memories brought me back about somebody. A small little box inside there's a gift i wanted to give to someone but i didnt. When i saw the box, i opened but less than 2 seconds i closed it back. Cos i'm so afraid to see. It was the most painful exprience i ever had in 2007 compared to the rest of the past. I hated and cried. But as i think back.. I would say.... How silly i was to sad over this for a few months. At that time i just "bu fu qi" why this would just ended just without any reason? Its so irresponsible. Until now i still dont know why. Well, is the past. No point searching back about it. And moreover, he's attached happily with the gf. Deep from my heart, God bless them (:

God's unconditional love had healed my heart that broken so many times. I always tell myself that dont relay on human but lay it on God's love.

All i need is HOPE. I begain to lose some of the HOPEs in my life.

Photos that speaks

2009-01-12T01:17:00.007+08:00

Human's Expression- Candid shots

SMILE!

I don't know why, I just loves taking shot of human's expression. Is so natural and candid. Photo show what human can't express in word. Thats the thing i love about taking photos. Whatever capture my heart, i will use photos to speaks it all (:

Malacca trip later noon but before going, i have to go and extend my passport expire date. Pray that i can extend yaa. God bless the trip! loveeee..

Supper

2009-01-11T03:24:00.004+08:00

Just came back from supper. Usually I don't go for supper but today I went. And I'm the one that asked my friend to go.. Haha. Maybe because I was just too hungry. Haha. I texted DL to go for supper since we stay so near each other so he agreed. We had mac! So sinful to have that for supper! Friends that know me and DL. They were very shocked that we went supper together. Heh. Well, I thought it was very normal cos we stay so near each other.

During our supper , HY called DL and she asked to go supper together. So we agreed since the night is still young. Haha. She craving for "crab". So she and matt drove all the way to pick ah wai, DL and me to go eat crab at kovan. DL and me didnt eat as we are too full to eat! Anyway Was a great night out (:

OMG is 3 plus am!!! Church later on!

ciao.

730 days (:

2009-01-10T00:23:00.005+08:00

Happy 2 Years Anniversary!

Its been 2 years working in WTC (adidas).

Well, its not too long and also not too short. I do enjoy working there even though there are time, there are some arguments with my colleagues. I see them almost every day so there are like part of my life.

Through this job, i had learnt a lot. Learnt to handle all sort of different customers that really test my patience level and my reactions when reply. But some customers that are nice really brighten up my day. (: So this job is good for anger management.

Haha. There are also some irony situation that i have to handle it efficiently for the customers. So that makes me think faster. Haha. Have to be careful with every words i use.

Not everyone can stay on retails job for too long, especially the youngster nowsaday. So i'm proud that i can endure it through these two years. Its not easy yaa. Haha. And many peoples might think that being in the retails line is not a good job? And will look down on you? But i tell you, without the sales person, how you gonna do shopping? How you gonna get the size you want?? Sometime when you are alone and you dont know which one or sizes to choose, the sales person is the one that help you to narrow down to the right choice. So be good to the sales person and not to be hard on them. haha. I been through it so i know. LOL. :D

Without them, dont think i ever to go through these two years! Just wanna say a BIG "THANK YOU" loveee (though they wont see this post, i still wanna blog about it) (:

Joel is so cute!

2009-01-08T22:31:00.005+08:00

Went to Cheenatown (Chinatown) with the Phua's family after my work today. Well, its a very suddenly thing. Because Joy came to my work's place to check out SMC's stuff and she asked me to join her and her family for dinner. So i just agreed since i've nothing to do tonight.

I was very entertained by little Joel. Guess what, he know how to sing one of my fav song! "I'm Yours by Jason Mraz. And he started to call me "wenn arhhh" and "ah wennn". Then call SE "en en ennnn". LOL. Isn't he cute? He just brighten up my day!

Ohya, its confirmed that I'm going malacca! So the peoples that are going will be... Ps Phua, Ps Ruth, Joy, lil Joel, SE and ME! Heeee... :D

I just started to read today "Boy meets Girl (say hello to courtship)" by josh Harris. Its Awwesomeeeee!

I like a few points that he indicate. "A man only pursued a woman romantically when he had the intention of pursuing marriage." And what is the meaning for courtship all about? "It's a time for the couple to get to know each other without outside pressure or overly high expectations." And its say, courtship shouldn't be too serious , too soon, it shouldn't be embarked on lightly either. In one sense, courtship is a commitment. It's a promise not to play games with another person's heart.

Well, i do agreed. (:

Nothing, just rubbish..

2009-01-08T00:06:00.006+08:00

HELLO HELLO HELLO.

I think i have insomnia! I can't sleep... Been sleeping from 1 plus to 2 plus to 3 plus then now 4 plus!!!! Its been for a month plus... SO TIRED! When i tried to went on bed early but ended up 2-3 hours later still awake! If this continues, think i will become a zombie yaa? Haha...

There are so many birthday's party this month that i have to attend. MEAN... I will be broke too. Anyway I'm already broke! Haha... Think my bonus is coming next week! Don't intend to spend. Want to save it for my studies, though i wanted to get my Gucci's wallet so much... Have to set what's my piority.

Many of my friends now is turning 21 this year! Time really flies... Just a blink, I will be 21 this year! I am still not prepare yet to be twenty-one! Haha.. I remembered, when i was young. I always wish that i am 21 years old so i can have more freedom in doing many things. But now... I SO DON'T WANT yaa!.. When passsed 21, it will be gonna be soon 22, 23, 24, 25.....etc. I think being sweet seventeen is the best yaa!

Think I'm gonna wear "Qi Poa" (Cheongsam) during 1st day of chinese new year! Well, i know i'm very cheena. Haha, only able to wear it once a year? So must well wear yaa.

Alright, i trying to sleep now. Night (:

Great day :D

2009-01-06T23:01:00.004+08:00

A good time to slack today

Had lunch at PS with Joshy then went to Ps diana's shop and brought another book from Josh Harris. This time is "boy meets girl". Went through many books like "the 10 best decision woman have to make", "woman's waiting", "captivating" and "every monday's prayer". So in the end i still chose the one i been wanted to buy, "boy meets girl". Joshy wanted to get "when God smile", is a very nice book but in the end didnt get. He got something else. Some weird book. Haha. Well, is a good slack day we had at Gloria Jeans. Had blueberry cheesecake and ice blended mocha. These two are my fav though its very sinful. heh.

I'm gonna have four days of leave next week. Probably visit Malaysia for a short two days with SE and pastors. Think going Malacca. Hee! (not confirm yet) I cant wait. Im seriously need a holiday! (: whoaahoooo!

Goodbye 2008, Hello 2009!!

2009-01-01T11:18:00.000+08:00

Hello New Year!!!!

Its 2009!!!!! Happy New Year, everyone!!

Just hope that 2009 will be a great one, yaa?

Bye bye 2008! And I hate 2008.. It wasn't a good year to me but i still wanna give thank to God for not letting me go though i disobey and broke your heart so many times. Your grace is sufficient for me!

I'm your Angel

by Celine Dion

I saw the teardrops, and I heard you cry

All you need is time, seek me and you shall find

You have everything and you're still lonely

It doesn't have to be this way, let me show you a better day

And then you will see, the morning will come

And all of your days will be bright as the sun

So all of your fears, just cast them on me

How can I make you see...

I'll be your cloud up in the sky

I'll be your shoulder when you cry

I'll hear your voices when you call me

I am your angelAnd when all hope is gone, I'm here

No matter how far you are, I'm near

It makes no difference who you are

I am your angelI'm your angel

And when it's time to face the storm

I'll be right by your side

Grace will keep up safe and warm

And I know we will survive

And when it seems as if your end is drawing near

Don't you dare give up the fight

Just put your trust beyond the sky...

My Heart is Heavy

2008-12-29T01:58:00.002+08:00

Somehow, my heart is heavy.
Everybody is moving on, how about me?
Will i stay the same?

Two more days and its gonna be 2009, thats fast.

RS

2008-12-16T23:28:00.000+08:00

So long never blog...

Well, i just chatted with a friend online. I was talking about RS with her and something came out of my mind when we were chatting.

"Somehow i feel, liking a person can be so heart broken. Why still go and like? But when God send the chosen one, God will give you the courage to love."

I'm amazed that i said that out. Haha.

Anyway, i think i won't get into RS now or soon. Well, i dont need it. Hmmm.. Is quite true that if i really go into RS, will my heart still 100% for God? I doubt so, half of the space will be fill with someone else. I will always remind myself that, no matter which guy i like. God will be the center of my life.

I have to be hard on my heart.

2008-10-31T15:04:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

TWENTY years old now!
myGOSH! Im so old liao! twenty Twenty TWENTY!
next year will be 21... then next next year will be 22.......23....24....!

Im tired

2008-10-16T23:48:00.000+08:00

Why does things always didnt go well as what i want? There's always hope but there's always disappointment too. I fall but i always get up and try over and over again. But this time i feel so tired.... How i wish my heart is make of rock, so that it wont be broken so many times. So tired, so tired.

Daddy, i need a rest. Give me the peace, i ask.

i just dont want to try anymore, its always ended up with disappointment. so tired.

(:

2008-10-02T01:07:00.000+08:00

i willing to try even though i know that it might be impossible? i dont know. Just give it a shot! At the end of the day, i will tell myself "at least i tried". For this im gonna take slowly at a time, im not gonna rush into it.

It takes time to build the connection and the relationship (:

Bored

2008-09-26T13:39:00.000+08:00

Took some test in facebook just now due to bored. haha.

One of the test is "which hairstyle suit you more?"

so after asking so many questions, the ans is rihanna's and victoria beckham hairstyle!

well, i will cut my hair sooon! been wanting to cut that. haha.

another test is "What kind of guy you would fall for?"

The ans is : You would fall for the frat boy.

Handsome right? HEEs..

You like to have a good time, and you want someone who's not afraid to go all out to have fun with you. Your man may belch at the dinner table, but you know you'll always have a crazy night ahead of you!

haha, its very true! This is what kind of guy i would like. haha.

3rd test "What College Best Suits Your Personality?"

:. Party School!

You're a people person. You're everyone's best friend. You like to talk and hang out with your buddies. Grades are a secondary priority, if they're a priority at all. No matter what your parents say you can probably still get a fairly decent job in sales or PR.

im now in sales line. (:

Cats are Evil

2008-09-13T11:40:00.000+08:00

Saw this from one website. Check out!

Photographic Proof That Cats are Evil and Plan World Domination

This will never happen

2008-09-13T01:34:00.000+08:00

discovered that grandma's stomach grow a stone in it. I dont know what's that call.. Is very dangereous for her to go for operation for her age now as she having heart problem. If percentage of opertaion successful is minor then my family rather my grandma not go for operation. When i heard of this news from my mum, my heart stopped for a second. I cant imagine if one day my grandma leave me. Yesh she will leave me someday but not now! She's still young! Not even 80! She's just 70++. I think probably i'll cry until i get blind. I love my grandma a lot ALOT.

just shut up and live

2008-09-10T22:48:00.000+08:00

i crushed my anger on the wall again. know i shouldnt but is the way where i throw my anger at.
this blog of mine have been more and more emo. friends that read my blog, dont ask me what happen 'cos my lip is seal. i really hate that kind of feelings, its suck to the hell. im sick of it... im no longer the "i" i used to be. Even my BFF Candy also said that.. She asked me some of the questions i been avoiding and not think about it. Well, i know im running away with it. Im just shut up and live, life would be easier. nobody will understand how i feel.

have You let go of me? im such a disappointment.

dont sail away from me

2008-09-10T00:14:00.000+08:00

alone on a sail
boat lost at sea
i did not recognize the skies above me
my compass was just spinning round and round
it was just spinning 'round and then with a gust of wind
things changed set off on a course that seem to me quite strange
i was heading through the air
straight for the mood
straight for the the mood
and when i landed
he took my hand we dined
and we danced with the stars
he asked me to stay in this dreamland but the wind called out
so i went instead then he turned to me and said don`t sail away
don`t sail away from me
don`t sail away
we could have such a lovely time
don`t sail away
don`t sail away from me
don`t sail away
you could stay and just be mine

i told him not this time

the wind carried me across deep spaces

i visited many times and many places

i drifted 'til my boat came to a stop on destiny`s roof top in side

i played chess with destiny

i saw a way to win so very easily

but he was taking far too long to make his move destiny wouldn`t move

so i turned my boat back towards that dreamland

and i filled the sails with my breath

when i landed

he took my hand though the wind called out i remained instead

he still turned to me and said don`t sail away

don`t sail away from me

don`t sail away

we could have such a lovely time

don`t sail away

don`t sail away from me

don`t sail away

you could stay and just be mine

i like to stay for a life time

don`t sail away

i like to stay don`t sail away

we could have such a lovely time

you could stay and just be mine

...

2008-09-03T11:44:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was Wingtai's D&D.

The theme is " VIVA LA GLAM" A GOLD & BLACK AFFAIR.

So everyone dressed up in black and gold. Neither do i. (:
Everyone look so glamous & gorgeous. Got pretty babes and handsome hunks. Haha.
I always loves to have this kind of event so i can doll up! Hees. But after the whole thing, have to remove make up and wash away the styling cream on the hair. It is very tiring. But all is worth it. (: haha. Well, this is my second times attended the company D&D. What i can say is... I prefer last year D&D. More fun! But this year luck draw prize is great. 1st prize is 2 air tickets to Tokyo and $2800 cash to spend there. Wow, how i wish is me who get it. HAHA. Then the 2nd and third prise is also great. Ahya, i also not bad lar. although i didnt get the top 20 prize. I got $50 vouchers use at great world city. (i dont know what i can spend on great world) Haha. Anyway if i have time i will upload the D&D photos soon. :D

Sometimes i just feel so tired, what's the purpose of meeting? Both of us knows what's the reason behind. And some words that we dont dare to say cos we dont want to commit. When both dont want to commit, why still meet? We're just wasting each other time. Word " lonelness" can bring us together but "commitment" can bring us apart. Can i stop and ends all this?

so screw up

2008-08-29T23:52:00.000+08:00

Didnt blog for quite some time, cos i dont feel like blogging.

How life can be so screw up, my life is in a mess now.
Jiawen, Jiawen, Jiawen!? How can you be in this way? sigh.
Disappointed in myself. Life is never as pure as last time.
I know God is always still good to me no matter how many times i disappoint Him.

i know im not following what God want me to do, im follow what my heart wanna do.
i know when im doing things that sins againest God, i still continues doing it.
i know, i know, i know..... im going astray.

someday i wont be able recognise myself anymore.

Is the wait worth?

2008-08-10T01:01:00.000+08:00

Can i just let go and follow what my heart want to do? Or follow what God want me to do? Its not easy... God, You ask me to wait. When will the time be coming? Is the wait worth it? Somehow, i feel that i dont have that patience to wait anymore. I feeling that i'm going astray, i know i am. No one know better than You do Oh God. Even i know at many times, Holy Spirit alway be there to tell me not to do this do that but i still ignore it and do whatever my heart want. I know Its upset You God..

Let me know, is the wait worth, Father?

Because You love me

2008-08-04T00:56:00.000+08:00

Am i a failure? Failure to many others? My parents? My friends? My family members? Well, i'm not as negative as last time i used to be if compare to now. But sometime i just cant help to think about it. I tried and fell many times, many mistakes i made. Did i learnt anything from it? I am sure i have... Its just make me even stronger than before. How i wanna prove to others to show that i can do it. Many might look down on me? So what if people is looking down on me? I dont give a damn about it now. I learning to love myself that whatever God have given me. So what if my education level is not as high as others? Maybe im just better at some other thing. I've learnt to see things in a more easy way now than keep asking "WHY?". "HOW" is the word i using more often now. Haha, i feel more happy in this way. Not emo-ing here and there. I dont give a damn to what peoples think about me. No one have the right to judge me, only God Himself.

Thanks God for loving the imperfection of me. The love that is so amazing... That makes me wanna show others what God have given me.

Everything is in His time i believe. So just wait upon Him.

Amazing

2008-08-03T00:31:00.000+08:00

Sometime its so amazing to see how God work things out for us when its impossible.
We just have to hand everything to Him.
Trust and Obey (: is all we need to see God's goodness in our life.

i slowly take one step at a time and God will lead me (:

Tears from the Lord

2008-07-27T18:39:00.000+08:00

I was upset yesterday. I thought it would be fine but yesterday i was extremely heartbroken. I was tearing during the praise and worship. The tears came from the heart that was so different from the normal tears i normally tear. The tears was from the Lord. Hmmm... She didn't turn up eventually. You know how excited i was when she told me she will be coming. Then the next moment she told me, she's not coming anymore. My heart was full of hope that maybe in the end she will still come? But sadly, no... So be it. At that moment i can felt how God feel. He was tearing. He open the gate for her and she chose to turn to other thing. And a msg that she sent to me broke my heart "im not hungry for God anymore, so its ok". When i saw this msg, i straight away threw my phone to my bag. I didnt reply her msg. She's my bestfriend, i want to see her in heaven with me. Pray that she will come back to the Lord someday. The gate will always open for her.

marriage?

2008-07-22T00:58:00.000+08:00

Isn't this baby cute? He's my friend's baby. Mixed blood baby. Father is chinese, Mother is eurasian. They're young parent. But sadly, they had divorce. I feel dishearten when i come to know many peoples nowsaday treat marriage as a game. Then what is the marriage vow all about? Want to marry then marry, want to divorce then divorce... After all, if they have kid.. The children are the suffer one.

hold my hand and lead me.

guide my heart when my heart is lost.

teach me when i am wrong.

give me the courage when i am in fear.

for i trust, You are the lover of my heart.

Waiting for God's assurance

2008-07-18T01:03:00.000+08:00

May find me silly, im actually been writing love dairy for my future bf. Definitely the bf will be a christian one, because i talk about God inside my dairy. Until when i know he is the right one, i will give the dairy to him. Hees. Kinda crazy i know :)

I just wanna stay awaiting patiently in God's promise to me. Everything is in His time (:

Most good timing

2008-07-17T01:07:00.000+08:00

Last mid-night, candy smsed me. She told me she's hungry for God's word so these few days she been reading it but the more she read it, she doubt God more. Im happy that she smsed me and tell me about it. And its a good start that she start reading her Bible again. But i really dont know what to say to her about her doubt. I asked her to continues to read and pray over it. So she replied me, she dont know how to talk to God now. The last time she talk to God was dont know how many years ago? She said that she cant talk to God when she doubt God. I think i've to meet her soon to talk to her. And i had invited her for the coming youth rally on Sat. And its so qiao that she off on that day too.. So i told her that, is the right timing. You see, God open a rally for you and somemore fall on your off day. He want to talk to you! So she said she will make it only when she got no prog on that day. Well, after we ended our sms. I prayed for her before i went to sleep.

I believe everything that God do will be in God's most good timing. Pray that she will make a wise choice to come for this rally. The only thing i can do is just pray for her and msg her to let her know i do care. After all, i will want to see her in Heaven with me next time. She's my BESTFRIEND!

Went to sentosa just now with winnie babe and wendy. Was fun, just bask under the sun and have our girl's talk. And we went shopping!!!! Hhaha, spent so much money!! Need to stop already. Anyway i will be meeting WQ later after my work, girl's talk again! And we can have our tea session again! Im just enjoying myself.... lovin' it!

GTG and slp, meeting winnie babe later in the morning for breakfast before we head to work. (:

A Time for Everything

2008-07-14T00:22:00.000+08:00

To my surprised, my body is not aching now after a long ride. Means that i am strong! LOL. Still thinking going jogging later morning. Hees.

And honestly, i've a crush with someone! LOL, or maybe is not a crush. Just interested. That person is not what i would like... (DEFINITELY NOT). But you know feelings come just unexpectedly. Anyway will KIV till the right time God chosen. Im still reading the "I kissed dating goodbye" book. Everytime when i read finish some part, i will write down my thought and ponder about it. Its help me a lot in some of my problems. Well, it challange me to stay single for God till i meet the right one that chose from GOd. Say is easier than to be done. Right? Why waste the time to look for boyfriend than to focus wholeheartedly for God? After all God is our greatest Love. When the time come, God will show. (:

I was reading my Bible during my break, God shown me this Chapter in Bible. One of the book in the Bible that i dont usually read. Ecclesiastes 3: 1-8

A Time for Everything

1 There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven:
2 a time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to uproot,
3 a time to kill and a time to heal, a time to tear down and a time to build,
4 a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance,
5 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them, a time to embrace and a time to refrain,
6 a time to search and a time to give up, a time to keep and a time to throw away,
7 a time to tear and a time to mend, a time to be silent and a time to speak,
8 a time to love and a time to hate, a time for war and a time for peace.

the extra mile?

2008-07-07T01:32:00.000+08:00

These few days i been listening to Class 95. All the oldies songs.. Nice ehh!

And i been craving for foods and drinks....... especially TEA! I told my mama that im craving for tea now.. She just said... "why you always have suddenly craving one?" Then i just joked and said... "cos im pregnant already". She just ignored me.... She must be thinking that im very lame lar... So chose to ignore me. lol

Well, WQ came and meet me today for dinner. Really appreciated it. And she waited for me to finish work then hang around for awhile then we waited for bus together. Though the timing we spent is short but i appreciated it so much. It do brighten up my day man! Thanks gal (: There are more to come... We gonna meet out more often. MID NIGHT MOVIE, TANNING and PARTYING! hees. This is what we gals should do... Live more happy and happening than those sickening freak.

Me and WQ (:

★XXXX★ says:
nvr msg dont mean i dun care huh
★XXXX★ says:
just that sometimes i dunno wat to say!!

....You dont know what to say.. Dont say then!. If you do care, you will know what to say... You will treasure it. Action speaks louder than word. ok.

sigh

2008-07-05T23:53:00.000+08:00

How disappointment it is... I was pissed yesterday. No... Is i am still piss. We re-build it and now you just crushed it.. Im not gonna do anything about it already. Im tired to try again. No point hoping...

Well, went to watch mid-night movie with WQ and SF. I was so pissed till i dont wanna go home so early so we gals catch a movie. "dont mess with johan". Is a very funny show but yet is a waste money show. Cos there's no story line... But WQ enjoyed a lot. She was laughing all the way..

Realised i never update for very long... Working in APWP is "boring". Cos there is no crowd... The bus journey is a killer. 1 hour of bus ride! Always makes me giddy and headaches after getting down the bus. Most of my customer is "China Woman". Sorry ive to say that.. I dislike china woman! Whenever they come to the shop, the people that with them is always "Singapore Old Man" Then the old man will pay everything for them.. The china woman will call them "bao bei or lao gon" here and there. That make me feel so disgusted! The china woman, they only care about the singapore old man's CPF's money! And most of the Singapore Old Man is quite highly educated, can hear from the way they talk. I wondering how come the singapore old man still silly enough to let the china woman to cheat their money? They didnt watch news one mehs? So many case about this. How stupid can they be?? I really dislike them... They break family up! Imagine your grandfather got a mistress outside? Trying to make you accept the mistress and give everything he have for her? And your poor grandma just left with nothing!. How saddenly can it be!.. Oops, im just too emotion!

Few days ago, during my break. I went to shop around parkway.. I didnt know that there open a christian book store. So I went in and brought a book to read. Ha. Is a famous book that everyone is reading. "I kissed dating goodbye". The latest edited version. Well, when im reading the book.. I cannot agree with some of the part. Especially when come to "say no more to dating"? Though i dont agree with it, i still wanna read more about it. Its good still.. After this book, probably i will get another of his book "Boy meet Girl (say hello to courtship)" Should be quite nice too..

Anyway i got to sleep.... Later full shift! and its on the sunday! SICKENING.

she's my all

2008-06-30T01:26:00.000+08:00

Grandma is going for operation soon. Her liver hardened. Though is not a major operation but i am still very worried. When i heard that need to go for operation, my heart sank. Is in pain... I dont want my grandma to go through operation. Is painful! ):

Im gonna fast and pray for my grandma!

ahyo

2008-06-24T23:46:00.001+08:00

Grandma hospitalize! Thanks God, not that serious. Her lung got problem i think. I come to realised that everytimes i came back from any Christian Camp, my grandma always landed in hospital. Like last year immediately when i came back from youth camp, in the middle of the night then my grandma got heart problem then we sent her to hospital. Then now... One day later after the Church Camp, my grandma now having lung problem! What is this? Spiritual attack? Comon davil, its doesnt work! I will be praying even harder! Haha..

Well i pray that my grandma will recover speedly! AMEN!

Btw, another transfer again! I will be transfer to Adidas Parkway! Its crazy man! I have not even stay at AWHL for a month and now transfering again! Talked to boss and she gave me all kind of reasons!.... Saying APWP needs a stronger second in-charge to take over and need me to be there to serve all the rich! Bcos im very good in serving the rich. Ahya, dont bullshit lar... This kind of reason also have....sigh, i hate it lar. NONSENSE!

Ohya, i met Ray today during my break! He booked out from army for a week. His eyes is still as small as last time! oops. Haha, we just had an hour of chat at starbuck below my work place. So funny, he went paragon to look for me. Didnt he know that actually im at wheelock working now. So he called my phone and ask if i am working at paragon now? cos he only saw all man, unless i became a man ler. lol. Told him im at wheelock now working and im having my break now. So he asked me "where are you?" then i told him.. "toilet" (stupid, call me when im shitting!) So i faster shitted finish then went to meet him. We chatted like we are long lost friend. But we isnt! haha, this is my 1st time really sit down and chat with ray. The rest is just on the phone and msges and bumping here and there. Well, the chat was good. Though its very short half an hour. okay, will meet again!

God remember

2008-06-23T01:20:00.002+08:00

God is just too AWESOME!...

The camp was a good awakening! In this camp, God assured me with His promises once again. All the while i though God forgotten the promises he had with me and the promises He had with me seem faded away. This was how i was feeling before the camp. Through this Camp, through the Holy Spirit to Ps James and he told me that.. "God had promised you ALREADY the promise He had for you, but you must listen to my commandments. After hearing that my tears just flow down.. God still remember!

I was blinded and lost in the world and now im found in His love once again. His perfect love...

Dead tired...

2008-06-18T00:33:00.000+08:00

Photo exhibition later on! So i'll be working till 2pm later then head back home to change then rush to clack quay to help to set up for the photo exhibition. Im so damn tired, worked full shift today again. My brain juice used finish today at work. void here and there, staff doing wrong payment so i have to re-do it. Until i dont know what im doing. I was woken up by them during my break when i was sleeping in my deep dream. didnt have dinner, too tired to eat. When my 1st in-charge not in the shop. All the shit things always happen one. damn. And i got training later on in the morning at 9am! ahyooo.... reall dead tired! Then think after the photo exhibition i will probably be going double O with my ladies for ladies night. And i got Church camp the next day. Havent pack anything yet! And i have to wear formal for my photo exhibition! I dont know what to wear... No formal clothes.

Cant wait for Church Camp! LOVE.

fairy tale

2008-06-17T01:02:00.000+08:00

又再想情形原来多公平
谁人如能使我
经常欢乐,也能使我哭
恋爱是无形如童话精灵
无形而能使我心情起伏反而感觉满足

我愿为爱作牺牲
耗尽了我的真
完成童话内戏份
现实纵使伤感,破碎公主的心
玻璃折射那幻觉
幻觉极迷人

王子,从来未遇到灰姑娘
天神从来未造出玻璃鞋
还是相信恋爱幻觉
童话拼合爱的方块

假如存在幸福玻璃鞋
假如神或上天肯安排
期望给我只管看一眼
只管穿一穿也愉快

成就一对可拥有一刹
花一生积蓄
我愿买期望跟你只管吻一吻
只管想一想也愉快!

cinderella one day would be good enough (:

):

2008-06-15T00:42:00.001+08:00

当我看我的脚踝袜, 不知不觉就穿了六个多月。时间都过得好快哦! And today i dont know how come broke it! ): Can i get that fix?

The Past

2008-06-14T12:03:00.000+08:00

aye tal, THIS IS FOR YOU!

thanks for the lil email you sent me. Haha, im touched. Yesh, we will hang out soon and im really misses those time when we did so many crazy things. Haha. LOVE!!!!

Guess who is this? Hees, cris.. dont laugh

Lil Joel now become Big Joel!

I misses those time!!!!!

I found this photo that took many years ago, think is kinda funny. This photo took at sentosa when me and joshQ went to plan our amazing race for the youth. Haha..

im happy, he asked (:

2008-06-14T02:35:00.000+08:00

Yesh, im back from Taipei on Wednesday's Night (:

The trip was good :D The picture on top is the picture i took at Taiwan. Nice right? Hees.. I will post the pictures soooonn... As i will be very busy these few days. (:

Great, i am able to go Church camp! But there's a price i need to pay... I need to work numbers of full shift! And im damn broke now, how am i gonna pay? lol. and i rejected someone invitation to an ball! ): He want me to be his partner, cos he gonna grad from his OCS. Yea, fall on the 20th June. Too bad, i need to put God first. And well, im happy he asked me. (:

I cant explain how excited i am (:

2008-06-08T01:04:00.000+08:00

In another few more hours i will be at Taipei. I cant put in word to tell you how excited i am right now! Hees.. So far, i only been to Msia and Thailand! Then Taiwan will add to my list. (: Soon it will be HK, Korea, Jap, Aust, Rome and many many more.....! (if i am rich enough) Haha.

Oh work today was... terrible! Hhaa, actually not terrible lar. Just more challenging. I just feel that im always on my own, have to handle things that i never handle before and my 1st in-charge always not in the shop, cos we're always different shift. When i step into the shop then she will leave the shop. So i've to settle everything on my own. There's no coaching or communication about work. Actually i always have cold feet when my staff come to me when they dont know what to do with the customer then i've to act "everything will be alright" look to settle with the customer. I needs to think fast in-order to talk to customer when they just suddenly bomber me with many questions! Not easy eh, must act like i know everything. And i just transfered to AWHL, so i dont really know how they do things and where they place the stock. I got staffs that working in awhl for 2-4 months can come and tell me 'where is this stock?' My goodness, i just work in awhl less than a week and they work for quite sometime and they dont know. (and i know where is it) Well, im trying to adapt. Control my temper and be patient. I realised that im actually very kind hearted enough not to say them when they do wrong things. Maybe bcos i just came only so i dont wanna say much. Maybe their standard is lower, APRG's standard is higher. More hardworking i think.. APRG's customer service is better, really. I do miss APRG ALOT!

My bone will break soon after working at AWHL.

Bye, will update when come back! LOVE!

Cant wait! ONE more day!

2008-06-07T01:33:00.000+08:00

My wallpaper!

Yeshh!

Im going Taiwan TOMORROW! Heehee.. Cant wait!

Went to got my money changed today! $707 Sing to $15500 Taiwan. So im damn broke now arhh... I havent plan finish about our taiwan's schedule! Haha.. Only highlighted which place to go. I havent pack my clothes yet, dont know what to wear there. Must look good arh, cos will take loads of pictures! hahaha. Guess this June will pass very fast, Beacuse i got so many things needed to do.

Cant wait to have holis, im emotionally and physically tired.

Settlers Cafe

2008-06-06T00:30:00.000+08:00

Ladies gathering again. Was fun though im ultra tired after my training. Haha. Went settlers cafe to had dinner and played board game! Not bad place to hang around with friends and to play many many gamesss...

Think hard! How to take the block without dropping the board.

After settlers, went to slack around at CQ.

94%

2008-06-05T01:16:00.000+08:00

Yay, had pratical test today at work. I passed! 94% ! Hees, am happy with it.. :D And today i work full shift... *Tired* So far, this is my 4 days at AWHL.. Still Okay.. Trying to adapt yaa! I've to be on my own now.... I misses APRG so badly, hur! Winnie babe also miss me too much. Haha. She wanna ask boss to trf me back. Haha, but not easy lar.. Awhl, already not enough inchage. How to trf? Anyway will take time yaa, is a challange to me! I wanna see if i capable to do it or not? I wanna show others i can do it! Haha, trying to change some of the awhl thingy.. But cannot too obvious, later the staff there unhappy. Not good arhh.. Although now is GSS, but sales still as bad. Especially AWHL!. And this month APRG's sales target is so high lar. Double of AWHL's sales target!!!!

I've training later on... Will be going back HQ. After that meeting WQ they all at settlers cafe (Clark Quay). She booked the table already, sure will be fun! But i will be so tired arhh... Next day full shift again! *tried tired* After saturday... It will gonna be great! Going taiwan!!!!!!!!!! Oops, i havent change to taiwan's money.. Gonns change $700 sing, should be enough arh? I'm really not sure whether i can make it to church camp or not? Cos i cant possible take so many leaves then my poor 1st in-charge have to work so many many full shift again! my taiwan trip will make her work 5 days full already! sigh, but i pray that i can go arh. Whatever....

Pizza Hut

2008-06-04T00:43:00.000+08:00

Finally met up with my dearest today. We had Pizza Hut at lucky plaza. Haha... Accompany Candy dearest to look for bikini and yeah she got it! She wanna wear it for this coming sunday for her sentosa trip. Too bad, i cant join her as i will be going Taiwan on that day. Yay!

Yea, you can see no matter how old are we, we still act cute. Haha. Growing older and older arhh... ): We gonna be twenty soon... OLD!

When come to food, Candy is a very small eater. So i've to help her to finish her food. Thats why i always look bigger size than her. All her fault lar.. Hhaha

She still look like a small kid, right? Let me intro... My bestest friend in this BIG BIG WORLD.......

Candid shot by Candy

Went to look for Christina at nearby her work place. Yay, 3 of us again! Haha..

Back to CHEC

2008-05-30T23:49:00.000+08:00

Went back to Chec, felt that everything changed.
Last time our batch is more noisy. Haha.. And Chec is gonna move! End Of Dec!
How sad can it be... Our Familiar walk way, colourful walk way and homey place. I will miss the place for sure yaa.. Pray that they can find place to continues this private school. Wondering is Oschool also gonna shift too?

Went to East Coast Park's Coffee Bean to slack during evening time and had heart to heart talk with WQ, was a good one!
All we talking about was "God" and "Relationship". Though she never been going church "regularly", but her heart for Christ is still faithful. (: Isn't thats good? Pray that one day she'll able to find a cell group where she belong and her heart full of excitement when she go church regularly. I believe she will (: Cos God has never give up on her. ;)

Tomorrow is my last day at paragon, dont know how am i going to go through it. Make my heart strong and leave with a smile. I won't tears! I must do it!!!.