counting down my bday in 13 hrs time (: (cos I was borned at 830am)

Well, as I was young, present Seem to be the one that I'm waiting for, but as we growth older, present doesn't seem to be the one anymore. It's actually the greetings from friends/ loved ones that will warm my heart and it's also means that they remember my bday (: that will be the best present I will have! :D

I'm happy that I able to celebrate my birthhday with all my loved ones this week. Different frens I met this week. I felt So loved yaa. Nothing beat the feeling that they actually rem my bday (: I loveeeeeee my beloved ones :)

And HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME in another 13 hrs!!!

Worst day ever today! So pissed~ can't wait to leave! 3 more months and I will say bye bye to them! Where does the joy had gone to? Miss the past when I don't feel a burden or drag to do what I'm doing now. Even if they offer me of what I wants, i don't give a damn abt it anymore! I jus don't wanna see them everyday of my life now n I don't wanna waste my time on them! They jus making me so sick! When the heart is cold n dried, there is nothing I can do anymore! I used to always tell myself to look at the bright side, don't think so much. Everything will be over n it's tempory only! After the rain, there is always rainbow! U reap what u sow. But I don't think so much anymore. In this case, I reap but I don't sow. After rain, there is no rainbow! I don't wanna waste time reapinG anymore! I need to get out of it and exprience new thing! I just wanna enjoy what I'm doing now. I don't want to everyday have this fear in me that worries whether that person is it can be trusted? Will betray me? Meant good for me? Thinking very hard to not to show my emotions? Tell me, what kind of life is it? Soon or later, I will down with depression! Not worthy huh..

Anyway, I just pray these 3 months will pass fast fast and everything will be fine (: