ii dreamt of youu....

da feeling is soooo nicee...


only in my dream...
i can have youu...
and talkk to youu...

i feel lyk i'm standing alone myself.
no one caree..
i feel lyk i'm facing all problems to myself.
no one to look for..

i'm crying right noww... RIGHT NOW!..

i'm yearning for Youu to help miee...
God, when i need you da most.. are you there?..
i'm reali need you oh God..

.:pls help miee all my needs i pray...


-i'm yearning for Youu to be there-

sch was fine yaa..
know more new frens yaaa.hahas.

i'm stress up for schh work yaa..
i'm afraid i will fail all my subs.. i dont have any confidence in all da subs. even chinese is my best sub among all subs, i still have no confidence in it.. cos my chinese very sucky now yaa..
i dont wanna be a "loser" in my class yaa. i'm afraid i will be in da last position in class!.. and i will let my teachers (especially ms jas) down and even my mommy!...

i'm reali afraid!....

sometimes i reali feel lyk givin up!..
i'm useless man~
why i so useless?!..
knowin tht my study alrdy not good nemore. still go and take private Os...
no matter how hard i tried, its still da same!...


-crying for help-

finally got da shoes i wanted for so bloody long...
went town to get tht shoes yaa..ahahas.. thanks you guys for accompany mie! (:
i'm happy!.. cos its my saved money for a few months/weeks.ahahs.da feelin is lyk sooo good tht youu saved money and buy things for urself.. hees.. everythings i buys, i provide myselff... cos mommy no money alrdy. gonna save money for others things (:



.: ps: thanks richard for da 10 bucksss yaa !..muacksss (:

oOhhyaa....

i lurve chatting with MAXIE TAY this babe!...

ahhaas.. (:

maxie... see your name there alrdy? it's big and bold!..ahahas..

went lunch with cherm in da afternoon.but i never eat.cos eaten at grandma hse le..hees...her cookin is oways very nicee ^^

den went church yaa for youth service. after that stay for practice yaa.
den went dinner with...dan,nis,john,JJ,mag,jason and richard... was very fun.had a very very full dinner. until i cant even walk... .:lurve them loads:.
i tried to be super happy todaee yaa...ahahhas.happy until a bit "siao"..ahahs..cos want to gain back wad i had lost ydae. ydae was sad. so must be happy todae! ahas... *crazy miee*

was veri moody yday.
not in a good mood.
feel so downn..of cos emo oso..
after schh..dont feel lyk going home yaa..
so went out until quite latee...
wanted to drink alcohol.den cant find.
da stupid 7eleven yaa.. stated that after 9pm den cant buy alcohols.wth.
ahhas...ohhyaa..ate brownie yaa..but suckss yaa..aahas..

i'm down with my study and my personal lifee..
ahaiss.... i reali miss tht time at FC yaa... when think of tht time with y0uu, my tears will roll out of my eyes. but i oways control myself not to cryy.. i need to be strong yaa. it's da past, i shld not think it again.i wish i will...ahais..
i look happy in da front but actually i veri lonely and sad inside...

-feel so discourage yaa-


God.. i need you right now. are you there?..


.:ps. mei hui, thanks for accompany mie for da whole nitee yaa. lurve yaa (:

went sentosa in da morning yaa with mei hui..
ahhaas...finally.veri long time never go liaoo...
met jeremy there.ahahas.he was friendly yaa?ahahs..so different from schh yaa...

and i so reddishh now siaa...ahahhas...


-i lurve sun-

make up class was fun yaa...
that's my skill?..
ahahas..

i'm back to bloggin...

went m'sia (austin hill) on sun for leader's retreat.
were fun yaa...a break for miee yaa... but still veri tired yaa..ahahas..
got to kick soccer there wif da guys.ahahas.fun yaa... i simply in lurve wif soccer man~...ahahas..
ahiss... never get to swim!..cos i cant..arghhh.....
da fellowship were goodd. bring each of us together.
just know sth..they're so sweet!


da sarawak trip is coming.cant wait.but scary yaa.it will be a tough mission trip yaa..we all shall have no fear man..! cos God will take care of everything yaa!!..hahas..


i miss shiao en yaaaaa........