i feel so empty now.



can i be cold toward you?.

just received two early xmas presents yday by andrea and lingling.!hehs.
i must wait for until xmas day itself den open. hahas. hope i can wait till that day.hahas.

after rehearsal head to town yday.
was shop and shop with joy.hahhas. but din get anything.
da rest didnt shop much. cos they're all guys!.
never ever go shopping with guy!hahas.
went to find candy at her working place.
hahas...miss her. she look so pale nehs.

still thinking wad to get for them for xmas.
have no idea. gals is easy. but guys totally no idea.
think i shall not spend so much this year. only getting pple whose is close to mie.
hahas.. going to get for my mommy white musk perfume from body shop for her xmas present. ^^

and i thinking should i dye and highlight my hair again?.
da 1st colo i dyed and highlighted one?. maybe jthis thurs. ahhas.
this thurs guess i will be damn busy. going to look for xmas presents. hehs.

went to substation for gig yday.
was not bad. just that not too happening.hehs.
da gig cost 10 bucks!. my goshh... ex nehs.. hahas.
neway, josh paid for mie 5 bucks. so i only paid 5 bucks. thanks joshh!
if next time there is gig. i wanna go! hahas. is fun. i enjoyed alot. hahas..
colin's band played. hmmm..alright lar.. just that their music is quite slow. prefer faster music.
ohhya..shaun dropped his guitar(base) when he swing it around. his face and lip turned very pale when he dropped. hehs. think he stocked. anyway, shaun did quite well yaa!. dont worried ((:
erika and nicholas was there too... hahas.. surprised that shawn not there. smsed him den know that he just came back from vietnam.no wonder.

after that da gig went to PS foodcourt and eat my dinner. for da rest is supper!.hehs.
da food there.. YUMMY! mean only da indonesian food. hahas. thanks to josh recommend.^^

will continue my today story tml. ((:

never been blogging for very long.
and cris keeps asking me to blog.
hahahs.
CRIS! i'm blogging now!
hahahas.. happy?.


never go out today.
resting at home.
been going out.
so now stay at home and rest.

havent meet up jialin for quite long already.
cos whenever i'm working then she not working. then when she working then i'm not working. so cant meet up. hehs.
her bros thought we quarrel or wad. cos i very long never go to their house already.

yday went to ding tai feng to eat with my family.
da foods there is BAGUS!!..
hahahas.. especially da fried rice! heaven man. hahs.

*sorry mag, will go with you next time yaa? hahas.

after da dinner.
my family shop around J8.
mommy brought a pink short from fox.
i'm surprised that mommy will buy. cos normally she will think that da short is very short. hehs.

ohhyaa.
before went dinner with my family.
went for puppet practice.
was not bad. they learnt quite fast! GOOD~
they will do a good job!.ahah.

my new blogskin. nice?
hehs.

think i'm very navie.
it's time for mie to let go this wonderful memories.
although da memories is so beautiful.
seriously, i cant bear to let go. but i'm have to.

went to work for ps diana today.
for mie was just a blessing!.
hahas..
i used da money to get da shoes i wanted yday!
hehs.

after work headed down to bugis to get da shoes.
brough pink colo. cris brough green!.
hehes..

going sentosa tml.
my beloved sun!.
hahas.
here i gooooo...

i miss you.
i wonder when will i see you again?.


sometimes you do makes me fly high.
but sometimes you makes me feel trample.

never been update for quite long.

just got back some of my results.
i didnt do that well.
but must wait till collect my report book then i will know.
cos my result havent add my projects marks.
i did really study very hard for my chem.
but da results didnt come out that well.
well, kinda of upset.

i'm leading cell this friday.
i still dont know wad to lead.
i got some notes with mie already.
but i want God to use mie wad He wanna mie to share in da cell.
hope there is an impact to them.

recently i'm been reading this book " Heaven Is So Real".
well, is a very nice book. *both thumbs up*
there is some chapter that really made mie feel so upset after reading it.

in heaven, there is a hug room fills with babies.
why there're so many babies there?
becos these are da babies of mother who did not want them.

why they want to abort da babies?.
da babies is innocent!

God does not like abortion!
it is da one one of da worst of all sins to Him.

it was jesus who said this, " Let the little children come to Me, and do not forbid them". -mark 10.14.

and da book oso talking about Hell!.
those who never accept jesus in their life, they will have to go hell.
even if you're a good person. still you need to go hell.
and even those pple so-called "Christian". who dont really know God and who continually and willfully sin and dont repent before they die or before the Rapture happens will be enternally lost and will lead to da Valley Of The Shadow Of Death.

so sad if i will see my parents, my loves one and my close frens in hell.
i dont want them to be in hell.
they need to be save!.

I CAN MAKE IT THROUGH THE RAIN
I CAN STAND UP ONCE AGAIN
ON MY OWN AND I KNOW
THAT I'M STRONG ENOUGH TO MEND
AND EVERYTIME I FEEL AFRAID
I HOLD TIGHTER TO MY FAITH
AND I LIVE ONE MORE DAY
AND I MAKE IT THROUGH THE RAIN

this is wad shiao en mailed mie.
hahahs.. will keep this here in case i lost it.hahas..



hey Jia Wen,

Blessed 17th Birthday..!! it's only the morning of your birthday here.. but i know it's already night in singapore. =p so in order not to miss the timing in singapore, i've decided to type you a mail before i go for class, which is in almost an hour's time..

i'm sure you are very busy today, as in the last few birthdays. i rem the BBQ and other times we've celebrated your bday. but anyway, i'm sorry that i can't be there to celebrate your bday with you..=( i hope you'll have a fantastic year ahead.. may laughter, joy and strength be yours in the coming year. lean on God cos it is an impt year for you.. and may Prince Charming come too if it is in God's timing.. *smiles*

miss you girl and hope that when you see the ring that i got for you the last time i was in singapore, you'll always remember that i care and love you. God does too.. you're never alone.

hugs and kisses,

shiaoen