Even in laughter, the heart may aches.


is bleeding and bleeding and bleeding, when will the hurts be remove and heal?

i cant hide the hurts in my heart, is so painful.

i was in great depression last week, kept eating non stop even though i know that i am super full.
even the food is suck, i still eat like nobody businese. i dont care about how much weight i'll put on, all i do is eat and eat and eat. is scary, i know.

last sunday, after had lunch with shiao en, i walked her back to her house. while i was walking to the bus stop to take bus, i saw swing. then i went to take a sit over there alone and started swinging here and there. is kinda weird for me to do that alone cos in the first place i wont want to sit there alone, but i eventually i sat there alone. when i sat there, i thought a lot. sometimes i cant even recognize myself anymore. where's the joy in me? i used to be very joyful. i suddenly feel so no confidence in myself, so lousy and useless. fat & ugly too.


i know i cannot go on like this anymore, soon i'll lead into even greatest depression and die.
so this week, i'm trying to be more happy? but sadness still sank into my heart, all i can do is pray. i know i can go thru it. cos the joy of the lord shall be my strength. all i need now is.. love;joy;peace&patience.

i need to dwell in the love's of God, so i can forget all hurts.
i need joy, so i can be joyful in all i do?
i need peace, so i can guard my heart once again.
i need patience, so i can patiencely wait for God's promises.

i'm trying to be strong; yeshh, i know i can.
someday the hurts will be remove,
somehow i'll be able to forget,
somewhere i'll find someone better.


i just need a little more of LOVE & CARE.

and a HUG.


i can pull thru in Chirst who strangthens me.

will your heart always be with me?

venue: lao pa sa
attended: kevin(AHER), shawn(AHER), scropi(AHER), alex(APRG), farmmy(APWP), siva(AHER), jeff(AIMM), yu peng(APRG), jiawen(APRG), sharon(AHER), huiying(AHER), matthew(APRG/AJS8).

the friends in WT ADI.

went to have supper at "lao pa sa" after work at 10pm. was fun, glad that i went. hahas.

watched "alone" with arii on last friday.
was not bad. definitely scary to me! haha, when the whole cinema only got 3 pples watching that.
one unknown woman, arii and me. :/




took this pic with crissss on sunday...
lover her so muchhh..

been going home after work these few days,
i wanted to go out with my friends so much that i dont want to be alone.
but my friends are all not free. busy working and schooling.

know something, i hate to be alone.



trying to keep myself occupied with work and everything, just to make myself not to think so much. sometimes i been thinking what if i can work for 24/7, it will be better. or make myself very very tired then go home and just sleep then i wont have to think so much.



i feels that my heart is hurting badly.
that bleed and bleed.

BBQ @ JOJO'S HOUSE.

sunday, 22 july 2006; afternoon.

these are the photos that took, there're somemore in dennis's camera.

photos will speak it all. (:





getting ready to take photo. CANDID SHOT.
















thinking hard....









BBQ.



House-wife ready to be. :D




BBQ Chicken man.



MAKAN TIME.







PLAYING TIME.










PHOTO TAKING.





















oops.. dennis's head!!




When I was young
I'd listen to the radio
Waitin' for my favorite songs
When they played I'd sing along
It made me smile.









three pretty's gals (: