holy spirit

today service was so damn good ya...?

god's telephone nos is 0000333...
hahas...

well, all da testimonials very encourage..
hahas....

kinda stress

oohh God...

wad should i do?
confuse now...

obey You or dishonour my parents?

should i go for da baptism?
and not lettin my parents know abt it...

been askin my mommy for years.
she just dont allow miee...
what should i do??

i want to go for baptism which my parents allow.
so i wont feel guilty and they will believe that da God i serve and believe is a true living God....

or should i wait for some more years...
i really scare that i will...


helppp.....


-lost without you-

tired

very tired today.
went out with mei hui today after school.
town again...

ahahas...

den after that went to visited rain at heren.
he still look as cute as last time..
hahas...
he going NS on 14 march.
so sad.
cannot see him often le..
hahas..
ohh yaa... just know a guy thru rain...
his name is daniel!
ahahs...
mei hui was quite crazy over him just now..
i mean daniel...
ahhas...
he look kinda handsome and with a sweet smile .
but i'm not interested arhh..
hahas...


ohhyaa...
today lesson was okays.
still blur blur oso....

help help...

ahahs...

yeahhh...
going sentosa tml morning!!
but maybe only.
cos damn tired.


-i still lyk youuu....

come before

come before,
before you now.
and i lay my burdens down.

prince of peace,
counsellor.
son of the father i adore.

i love you lord,
you're all i have.
you're all i ever really want.
your face is all i seek...

you put a new song in my heart.
a song of praise to you, oh lord.
and i will worship all my life.
trust in the lord...

hallelujah...

aiiyaya...
hahas...
i shall be joyful!!!
hahas...

shall be a joyful jiawen!!!
hees hees....

da joy of da lord shall be my strength!!!!!
yea??
hahas...

live da days with JOY!!!

bleahhs bleahss~~

i'm back to joy!!
no matter how hard life is,
i gonna face it with a strong heart!!!


actually i still pissed with him....
but i gonna to forgive!!!
hahas...
it's just a small matter ritee?
so forgive!!!!
dont wanna make myself so upset!
hahas...


lalalalala~

saddddd

finally he replied.
a sad ans.
damn pissed now.
and sadd..
wad da fuckk...
another broken heart.
no point crying.
not worthy.
must be strong, jiawen!!!




-sorry god for da error words..

missing you

just came back from school.

wore cap to school today...
wahs laoss....
wei hong and joshua pull away my cap...
messed up my hair.
joshua is da worst lor.
pull out my cap in da public and ran away with it.
my hair is very very messy lorr...
like a crazy gal...
somemore i shouted lor..
and da pples all lookin at miee when i chase joshua..
so quite pissed?
ahahas...
yea...

da rest like colin and sabri tried to pull away my cap but they didnt succeed.
ahahahs....


never see him today.
never reply my msg oso.
never online oso..
like missing from this world...

is he running away from mie?
if really, its really stupid lor..
immature acts...
but i believe he wont...

startin to missing him..
ohh noo....
damn mieee!!

bored...

so bored now....
at home now...
waiting to go school....
lesson only start at 4.30pm.

waiting for someone msg.
but he never reply.
so sad....

why our friendship became like this?
haiiss...

miss those time man...
i think that time is one of my most happy time in my life...

but now....
haiiss...
it's my fault...
told myself i dont want to bother abt this anymore but i just cant...
shit miee...

really wish to see him.
but i oways stop myself from seeing him...
i'm afraid.........

everlasting

Lord, your glory everlasting
i bow down and worship you
great and mighty, you are holy
there is no one else like you

who am i that you should save me?
who am i that you should love me?
who am i that you should give your life for me?

i like you

whenever i feels like sending you a msg,
but i dont dare to send you.

deeply in my heart,
really wish to see you.
but i'm afraid to face you.

oways wish that will dream of you in my dream.
but i'm afraid my dream wont have you..

from da bottom of my heart,
i wish to tell you....

i really really like you......

i'm a failure....


deeply hate myself....

i'm weak....



-lonely heart-

mie?

life is kinda sad and stress..?!


i laught?
but dont know whether izzit coming from my heart?
or just trying to make myself happy and forget abt da sad thing??
dont choose to rem?


wad if there's something that i can drink that let miee forget da past and da person.
will you drink?
i think i might choose to drink...?


sometime i really tried so hard to think positive and not pessimistic.
it's really so hard man!!..

life is tough man...

trying to ask pple to think of da bright side of life.
but miee myself didnt do it...

damn miee...


God...
why you give miee a life with so many problems??!!
i really dont know how to handle it....

sometime i really wish that you can take miee away from this scary world and bring miee to a wonderful place in heaven.
but if you bring miee there,
i dont dare to face you my lord.

cos...

i'm a sinful man.....




ohh Lord..

i need you....

18days

i known him for 18 days...

give up?

i gonna give up...
dont want to bother anymore..

like a person until sooo tired.
let it go by natural.
what's da point go and like someone that have no feeling on you?
stupid rite??

ahahhas...

I'M FREE.....

ahhaas...

school today damn tired ya...
gonna fall asleep during poa last period.
boring lesson sia...
ahahas.... dont even know what da miss pauline was teaching.
cos never really pay attention mahs..
bad miee....
hahas....
lucky today can understand maths , chem and phy lesson.
but phy still got abit blur...

stress arhhh!!!

sometime feel like i gonnago mad by da sch work...
hahas.... stress sia....

hahas... gonna stop here..
will blog somemore...

like??

i think i really like him sak...
but not love ya...

oways think of him in da middle of da nitee...
crazy riteE?
ahahas...
dont know arhh..

very damn shy to see him.
he's oso...
ahhas...

he's quite shy sak...

but look can be deceive...

he isnt da guy i like.
but i dont know why i like him oso.
crazyy miee arhh.....

bleahs =p


but very sad arhhhs....
worryin abt da friendship sia...

arghhhhh....

heyss

heyees...

this is my new blogskin!!
hahass....
nicee??
hahasss


oOhyaa...

Happy valentine's day!!

was bored sia..
hahas..
miss my sec sch frens.
miss yew guys!!!

i'm sad sad sad..
becos of him?
hahas..
maybe?
but nvm..
it's okays.
i can take it!!


i'm just bored!!

lame arh..
crazy oso...

romantic ya

yesterday (9th feb) is da 1st day of chinese new year...
so bored...
but my sis-in-law just given birth to Alexis!!
so happy....
i'm a gou gou now le...
da baby is sooo cute man...
hahahs....


oohyaa...

i want to meet him at orchard mrt at 8.15pm.
i was abit late ya.
pai sehh...

i was so excited and happy to meet him...

we didnt know where to go so we decided to go and meet mei hui and sabri at "font canning"...
romantic siaa...
hees...
when we reached, we walked our own.
we didnt follow them...
really romantic sia.....

never do this kind of thing before in my life.
it's my first time walk around that place with a guy at nitee...
hahas...
but da place look scary....
i was holding his arm or hand for secure (sometime only..) becos i'm shy yaa....
hees hees....

while we was walking half way,
we saw firework!!
it's so nice and beautiful!!
made it more romantic sia...
hahas....

when i was coming down from da chair,
he hold my hand...
i was too shy so i dont really hold his hand..
he is so thoughtful man...

i think miee and him was very shy at that time ya...

everytime we heard something weird,
i will oways hold him and he will oways tried to frighten miee...
hahass...

after that we sat at da dark dark scary place to talk.
and we took pic from my hp...
hees hees...

i told him that i needed to be home before 12am.
so he send miee home...
we two like cant bear to leave da place like that..
really like da place...
so we walked very slowly to take da cab...
i aske d him no need to send miee home.
but he insisted want to send miee home.
so i just let him send miee home ya...
so GENTLEMANLY!!
i like it!!
ahahas....

when reached my house,
he left da taxi with miee..
i thought he will continue da taxi but he didnt.
maybe he wan to stay late a little more and talk...??
so i asked him to take da cab behind my cab.
cos my house here is very hard to find cab...

when i was lookin in da cab ,
i saw papa inside da cab...
ohhh nooo...
so i just ran to took da lift home...
sooo bad...
i left him there....

ohh yyaa...

in da end papa talked to him...
kaooo~

papa asked him whether is he my friend?
and asked him to tell miee not to talked on da phone for sooo long and asked him to tell miee to study hard...

so scary sia....


after today.....
i think i quite like him...??
i mean as a friend?
or "bleahhhh bleahhh".....?
hahas....

he's not that handsome and not ugly oso....
ACCEPTABLE!!!
hahas...
cos miee not that good oso ya!!


i think i "bleahhhs bleahsss" him ehhh.....
so gentlemanly!!

hope i wont so "bleahss" him....
if not rejected by him even worst...
den i will be hurt again....
dont want to be hurt....
i cant take it man...
coz i'm weak!!


have i forgotten xxxxxx?
hahas...
i think so??
i dont know....

for so many yrs after xxxxxx's case.
i never so like someone before le...
even mei hui has never hear miee say i like someone before which so straight forward...
hahas...


nowsaday,
i oways look forward to message him and go out with him.
i only know him for around less than 2 weeks?
i think its a crushh??
hahas...
i dont know.
coz i dont believe in crush de...


today (10th feb)..

he messaged mieee and said that, "lets go there again some other time"!!

my heart is flowed with joy and happiness!!!
hahas....


oohh my gossh.....

he's really gentleman, caring, thoughtful and understanding......
hees hees....


dont know who i will spend my valentine's day with?? =)