i'm sickk...
help.!!>.<

cant talkk..!..

i simply hate this home!...


is hell....

wrote this during da tonnin at ecp.


i wrote your name unto da sand,
knowin that da sea water will come and wash your name off.
yet i never try to avoid da sea water from comin.
cos even if i try to avoid da sea water from washin away your name,
i will never succeed!...

is da same thing that...

knowing that i still have feelin on you but i'll never ever tell you again.
cos if i say,
"i still lyk you".
will you accept miee?
no, you will never accept miee.

then why try so hard?
in da end, you're da one who get hurt.!..
right?..

very tired yaa.. toned last nitee at ecp.
was kinda fun yaa.of cos veri tired yaa!..ahahs..was quite crazy yaa.did alot of silly & crazy acts.hees...

omgg!...da stars there veri nice siaa!.. were real nice yaa!...kept admiring da stars!..ahahas..there's one star that i simply so adore yaa!!..da brighten among all da stars yaa..i reali lurve it man..ahahas..can someone get it for miee?.. *crazyy miee*

andd i viewed da sunrise!!...omg~ it's soooo nicee!ahhas...

after that went for breakfast at mac..hees.den home sweet home!!..yawnn...tiredd...

todae not that tired yaa..
ahahas..
feel more encouraged to see my grp members work together..ahahs..but da grp's leader oways MIA...ahhas..oways hack care dee..ahiss...

i shall open my shop tml yaa..ahahas...cos still got some left over.gonna bring out more stuff to sell tml as tml last day already.but scared that my grp will lost money.its a big risk yaa!..

yeahyeahh...
tml is FRIDAE man!!...ohhh yessshh...been waiting for this dae yaa...cos i'm super stress da last few days.must take care of da stall and went ard to buy da stuff.and till got lots HWs to do... so super stress!!...ahahas..*complaining complaining*


and todae...just scolded MELVIN CHEN MENG CHEN to "shut up"!...
was super irritated by him lorr... he oways disurb mervyn and mie..!.but not in obvious wayy lar...but i veri sensitive. can sense it..melvin tot i dont know.actually i know lorr..
so todae when in da lift, mer was there oso. den he oways hint mer and disturbin. melvin kept askin mer to go infront and stand (where i standin) den i was lyk a bit fed-up liaoo den after that mel said that, "mer, u and jiawen hair look omost da same yaa!.. den i straight away turned to mel and scolded him to SHUT UP!.. he was shocked that i will said that...his reaction looked veri funny siaa....ahahas...

after that i msged mer that wadever mel had said hopee wont affect our "friendship" yaa..
and -friend4ever-..!.
andd then mer replied that "yeah sure :)"...
ahahas..thanks God yaa..cant effort to lose this friendship man...after that person casee!..ahahas...aniwae, i treat him as my fren onlyy..hees..

oOoo....cant wait for tml yaa!... tonin over nitee at ecp yaa!..hees..

quite discouraged todaee..

i'm real tired!...
were busy abt da m&m project.tml will be last dae yaa.not gonna to open on fri yaa..if open, i gonna collapse soon...

i feel lyk i'm doing all da stuff alone yaa... pple, i'm reali veri tired yaa..can give mie a break?i dont mind doing all da stuff but pls do it together yaaa..not mie alone.
and i veri discouraged todae.. can you guys put ur heart in to do da project?
i'm not veri excited for da project thingy.just that no one is doing it.so i have to do it!..to take up this responsible. you guys might think its quite a "childish project". but pls put ur heart in to do it yaa!.. its a new challenge!..although its veri stress and tirin.and ya we all become closer with each other.isnt it?...just give your best yaa??..


thx jia lin for your encouagement.!...i'm reali appreciated =)

a tired dae for mie todae.


am i real happy?...


i'm strong but my heart is weak..

someone gotten slap mie plsss...
wad's da problem with mie?!..

jiawen!!!!!
wake up!!!...

sayin a "hi" issit so hardd?..
after all...we're still friend yaaa..



-missin da time-84days-

todae 1st day of sellin da M&M thingy.
soooo tired...andd pissed??...ahahas....
miee pissed still can laught!..ahahs....
wad to do?..life still must move on yaa..hees...
reali real tired...went J8 after schh...just to go there to get da stuff for da pro.so heavy siaa..gonna bring a big bag to put da stuff tht bringing schh to sell yaa....
and nestor!..you gonna wait for mie at mrt to help mie take da stuff yaa!!ahahas...see how yaa..mayb i can do it myself? cosss... i'm STRONG!!...ahahas

worship ME in spirit and in truth.
dont look at da right and dont look at da left.
I'm just right infront and beside you.

dont look for man for comforter.
but look for ME!..

-man do fails you but I'll never fails you-


thanks God for da words you given miee..
i know wad You tryin to tell miee. You're da only one know wad i'm going thru..

hope will oso encourage some of you guyss..

who you think you're?!..
you're just a fucking person to miee!!...
you had hurt mie deeply again and again!!!...its countless hurts!!...
i had enoughh of you..!..
i reali reali hate you!!!!!...

cant believe i said this to her my dearest.
da words i never ever dare to think of...but now its spoke out of my mouth!...
i used to disapprove abt this..cos i cant face it.

how could you this fucker said this to mieee!!..
you have no right to judge mie!
i dont respect you!! cos you dont gain my respect!!!.
you're worsen than a pig, dog..watever!..

i will oways rem wad you said or scolded mie!!
you make mie fill lyk takin a knife to kill you!!...

this time he reali hurt miee deeply yaaa!!...
cant believe how can he be part of my life!!

God!!..whyy?!..

i reali wish to hate you.but my heart is too soft to hate!!..
only can dislike you!!..

she said tht mie very useless.why so easy cry?
cos i'm reali reali hurted by him!!...i seldom cry for da words he hurted miee..but this time i have to admite tht i'm useless!..but i happy tht i dare to fight againest him..i'm shocked thou.

how can you acted lyk nth has happened?
i cant plss..

woos...went for da "pentecost now" ydae!..
was great yaa!!.. ahahas..i'm going backk tonite.!..
ahhaas..went dinner wif joy ydae b4 going to da kallang theatre.

saw a lot of students from that schh. i shld not say wad sch..their uniform sucks.!..ahahas..actually not that bad yaa...ahahas.my sec sch uniform is nicer!..ahahs..
bad miee..heeshees...

tanna and rayvin was there oso..ahahas
i asked tanna one da mahs..ahahas..
ray came wif those emmanuel guys!.ahhaas..
and then ray walked pass mie and he intro his mommy to mie. i was lyk "oh heloo" to his mommy. were shocked!...ahhas..didnt know that is his mommy.ahahas..

ohhyaa... da service was great! cant stop laughting!...even through i gonna have no voice alrdy..ahahas... indeed, da preacher were good!..Amen~

tonitee will be a great s1ervice!!yeaa?...ahahas..

now worryin abt da sat youth prog.
hais...joy wont be ard.hope dennis will be there to help miee.

went to meet mag for lunch yaa.
we had a talked.heeshees..

den after that went to schh yaa.
went for hiphop dance!...
hahas.was fun yaa.enjoyed.!..
but so tought yaa.for mie lar..ahhas.cos i'm slow yaa!!

den went for chinese lesson.
got backk da test result yaa.. i did veri badly!! i think its da 1st time i did so badly yaa..kinda disappointed yaa..haiss..

aww...arghhh....
i still got alot of HWs havent do yet.project thingy and test to study yaa!>.<
help yaa!!!!

todae late for schh again.
forever late siaa.ahahas..nvm yaa..
was veri sleepy todae yaa.

finally finished my first part of M&M project.
da video shootin finally finished oso.
heeshees...
now only waitin for da selling of stuff for da project.
think will be veri fun yaa!..can wait nehs..
ahahas..

was pissed todae.
da ms paulin put mie as 40 mins latee.
told her tht i late bcos of da M&M video shootin den she still put mie as 40 min late siaa..wth!!..
arghhh..!..shit siaaa...

ohhyaa..
mei hui sick todae yaa.
den mr kenny wanted her to go backk.den she dont want.
but in da end.she went backk still yaa.somemore da A/T send her back de yaa..
and huling went back wif her to take care of her yaa...
so only left miee.!..
lonely siiaa.
but was okays.
not that lonely actually.
hees.. still got others frens yaa...

ohhyaa!!...
ate pocky todae!!!.
omg~
heeshees..
somemore i brought 2 packets siaa..

tml got chinese test yaa..
still havent study yet siaa..

thinkin whether want to go for hiphop class tml notx?

*thinkin thinkin thinkin*

-smile-

once was torn apart.
but now i'm healed =)

todae service was great?..
ahahas..yeayeas..

todae da morning class was good.
thanks for da words yaa.
reali very encouraging yaa..
its so beautiful yaa.
reali so beautiful yaa that i cant put in words!...

-i'm so loved-

only Your lurve will never fails miee!..


todae after church never go newhere.
after lunch den went backk home.
cant believe that i reached home at 1515pm!...
damn early ritee?
hahas...but nvm yaa.
can let miee rest and had nap in da afternoon.after so many nite stay up latee yaa.
heeshees...

but i havent do my HWs yet siaa..
i'm lazy yaa.
and i have no idea wad to do for chem.
dont even understand siaa.
haiss....at nite den do yaa...

feelings of euu..get lost yaaa!!..

todae lesson was stress?...
haiss...
quite tough siaa..
friday got maths and phy test siaa..
siann..

there's no secruity in lovee.... i'm scared.

now waiting for time to go schh yaa.
i'm boredd yaa..
430pm den start schh yaa...
i miss shiao en siaa..

how much i need to pay if i wanna change my passport photo?
i dont know ehh..
must reali change yaa..if not i cant go over sea liaoo..
ahais...

da tong hua song is reali nice siaa..
so saddening~..
wanna cry liaoo..ahahas..

wooos...
so long never blog liao ehh..ahahas...lazy yaa.

life still da same yaa.
know more frens yaa.
ahahas.lala..

hmmm....
i shld stop myself from eatin POCKEY for 1 month!!..
think i sure put on weight if i continue... eatin my pockey!..
awww...and mocha oso!!...
thanks God...my schh nv sell mocha nemore.
start drinkin lime juice.. yeahs~
good for health yaa..
must stop myself from oily food oso.
eat fruits!!..ahahas..
ohh..i'm not on diet okays..
i still eat meat~!..ahahas...
just wanna stay healthy!!...ahahas...


was...soo fed-up todae in schh.
but never reali show out yaa...
hmmm...not sure ehh..did i?..ahahas...cos i still laughting.
was gonna explore.
cos cos cos...
hmmmm... i shld not sayy ehh..dont know how to put it.
neway... i enjoyed sch todae~.hahas..


think he broke up wif his gf?.
why he still so calm?.
ahhais...
dont know larr.
dont wanna bother abt it.