It's been very long since I stepped into relationship again. It was a hard decision for me to get into it. You know when my age is the time for settling down, so I've to think carefully if I wanna commit to this person. If things doesn't work well, time and youth are wasted. I'm not young anymore.
But well, so far still okay. We still need time to gain trust from each other. Especially for me, I always don't have much confidence in myself. So often I will feel that I'm not good enough. As in outward appearance. Though I know I'm pretty enough :p but physical wise, I feel inferior. There are so many girls out there with pretty face and hot body. Especially those peoples he followed in IG and pples in his gym. Guys always like pretty stuff, so does my guy. I'm worrying, definitely. But nothing much I can do. I can only make myself better by looking better and train hard in the gym to bring up my market value and gain confidence. I pray things will be better for us, remove those unnecessary worries and just enjoy this relationship. Sometimes I'm jus so tired, I need somebody to rely on. I've been on my own for years and acting strong for too long. I need a shoulder to lean on and be pampered. Will he be the one for me? I'm still keeping in view. Is still too quick to judge. Though my heart is already half in?
