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wooos....

mei hui brought mie POCKY!!!
lurve her yaaa...
yummy yummmy~

went for rehearsal today.
rehearsal untill 1am yaa.
but i left at 1210am i think??..
ahahs...
need to wake up later at 745am yaa..
so early siaa...

another new day

just another same day in sch.
just came a new batch (OB) of students in sch..
more students now...
more cute guys and chio BUs in schh yaa.

went lunch with joshua in da afternoon.
was okays.ahhas.normal.
brought pocky again!!hahas..

was shocked.! didnt know that tanna known rayvin since sec sch.
ahhahas....
no wonder they know each other yaa.
got more frens in this sch yaa.

alright.. went dinner with ray and tanna yaa.
ahhahas...
dinner was good yaa.
ray actually very thick skin siaa.
and tanna still so funny as last time.
ahahas..

-thanks God... dont have feelin on him anymore yaa-

synergiz

synergiz was good yaa.
da presence of God were there..
ahahas..
had given up da thingy which is not right before HIm!!
ohh yeah man~
learn alots of thingy over there at da conference.
its has fired mie up!!..
and a renewed heart...
yeahss~
just too awesome yaa!!
ahahas...


this are da things:
-you did not conquer your destiny with God, but you surrender to Him.
-we need to give up things that you need to give up, although it's hurts but it's worthy!!..
-worship is abt "real" and "honest" with God.
-prayer is da key to seek God and build a devotional with God and key to prophetic anointing.
-let your heart be simple of God.
-lurve them as who they're .
-anointing comes with da lurve and must lurves others as christ.

*hurts shall removed.peace be still.God never give up on miee yaa.*

holy spirit..

re-new miee oh Lord.
let Your Holy Spirit fill miee once again.
da fire burn in miee once again.
fill miee with lurve once again.
da desire passion of You once again.
Your empower once again.
let your anointing flow over this place oh Lord.
re-new each person mind, soul and heart Lord..
thou we are hard in da front but we 're weak inside Lord.
Father, soften your heart oh Lord...

i humbly ask from You oh Lord.
you said.....
ask you shall received.
seek and you will find.
knock, da door will open for you...



-holy spirit rain down-

holy spirit rain down, rain down
O comforter and friend
how we need your touch again

holy spirit rain down, rain down
let your power fall
let your voice be heard
come and change our hearts
as we stand on your world
holy spirit rain down

no eyes has seen
no ears had heard
no mind can know
what God has in store

so open up heaven
open it wide
over your church
and over our lives

holy spirit rain down....

i'm ready to let go now.
praise da Lord!!
ahahas...


God i will let go of things which is not right before you...


cant wait for synergiz!!!

went cycling for da past 2 days..
ahahas. monday and tuesday...
monday went with mei hui.
tuesday went with shiao en..

my backside very pain siaa..
sat until very pain.
ahahas..

wanted to canoe on tues.
but in da end....
cant find da canoe thingy so never canoe...
so decided to cycling lorr..
ahahas...


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went tracting today.
damn pissed..
only shiao en, mie da youth turned up today.
thanks god for da childrens.. they're there to help.
where are all da children's church team gone to?
sigh...


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was damn sad yday.
juz know that he patched back with his ex-gal...
i dont know how to react or express my feelings yaa...
like a glass from a high place and its drop down and broke..
very heart broken. like cant breath anymore.. i just stunned!!
dont know that he will patched back with his ex-gal...
then wad he said to mie in da past. was a lies?
said that he dont have any feeling on her anymore!?...
hate pple who lie to mie!!
but i dont hate him.
it's hard for miee to hate pple..

i'm deeply hurts actually..
but who will know my hurts?
he will just enjoy with his gal with all mushy words...
why i still congrats him?
wish him and his gal happy and ask him to lurve her?
isnt i too good already?
do i really willing to let go?
i dont know... i wish i can...
but whenever i look at da msgs that he send mie in da past and da pics we two took.
i will be very real sad and hard to let go..
and to da surprised.. i never cry!!
just cant cry out....

i lurve eu

when i first met you,
i was afraid to know you.
now i that i know you,
i was afraid to like you.
now that i like you,
i was afraid to love you.
now that i love you,
i was afraid to lose you.
now that i lost you,
i'm just now hoping for your return.

if i could be anything,
i would be the tear in your eyes.
so that i could be born in your eyes,
roll down your cheeks,
and die on your lips...


-i lurve you-

i sad again today.
i really in a very bad mood...

shouldnt writee him that card?...
that card mean nth wadd..
just asked him to be my sistar.
shit miee arhh...

just got back my results.
i'm quite un-happy with my results.
althought i got 19/51 position in sch for OA2..
but still sad... i dont know wad i want yaa..

went disney on ice!
it's damn nice...
it's changed my mood for today!!

da princess is so pretty
da prince is so charming

can i be cinderalla?

ahahas...

yeahs...
finally got da green shirt.
quit common yaa...
went to topshop to buy.
mei hui am i brought da same.
gonna wear it to sch tml.
but weird arhh.. wear da same shirt tml.
ahahas...

went to buy da pocky again to sch...
hahas...
again yaa.. will put on weight... sigh...
and i broght da kinder beuno for him...
hahaas... very normal for miee to buy something for pple.
ahahas...
he kinda surprised that i gave him da chocolate.
so sweet... ahhaas.... bleahs =p

maybe shawn, shaun and colin that gang will be goin for da planet shackers concert.
hahahas....

face not that red today.
hahas...
i'm in lurve with pocky siaa!!!
nice nehhs..
i'm very very happy today yaa!!
hahas... dont know whyy....
pocky makes miee happy?
ahhas...
cannot eat too much!
later put on weight...
aahhas...
finally had my auntie anne!!
taste soo nice man...
been wanted to eat for a few months.
FINALY!!
hahas...

chocolate do makes pple happy!!
hahas..

he lurves chocolate!!!
oways see him eat chocolate...
hahas...
kinder bueno!?
my fav toooo.....

got my maths re-test full marks.
ahhas..
actually nth to happy abt..
just a re-test!!
ahahas...
ohhya...
phy project was successful!!
hahas.. fun oso...

today kanna disturb again...
damn colin, joshua and james...!
ahahas...
wanna ah bishh them arhhh.....

chatted with him alot today.
hahas...
da friendship come back le worx!!
hhahas... good good...
hope wont leave so fast...

ohhyaa... havin lunch with josh Q this fri.... actually it's today de but i changed to fri...
hahahas....

got to know more and more fren in schh...
hahas...
yeashh...

ohhyaa...
yesterday. met 2 emanual church guy in schh..
wad so shocked they're in sch.
i think 1 of them came for interview to join da sch...
da one who gonna join da sch is quite handsome arhh...
hahas...
one of da breakdancer tht i wish to know was there.
ahahas...
actually was not sure whether izzit them lehss.
in da end went to talked to him.
darin hor? ahahas.. actually okays lar. normal bahs.
he was kinda shocked that i know that he is from da emanual church.
ahahs. i told him that i saw him at synergiz and inight?.. ahhas....
and he asked mie whether i going to synergiz this comin march. i said yesh!
ahhas... den see mie there... hahas...
he look kinda shy oso.. funny him....
finally got da chance talk to him!!!
ohhh thanks god man yaaa...

burneddd again

i'm burned again!!
ahahas...
went swimmin again.
but this time is with shiao en...

after that went to huiling's house.
just know something funny.
hahas
in my life, 1st time in my life...
saw someone boiling naggle to eat.
i should not say who...
ahahas...
in da end....
i ended up helpin her to fry da naggle..
hahas...

ohhh yaaa...
i'm damn redishh today!!
everyone is been disturbin mie with my redish look!!
ahahs... wore a cap to sch today. to cover my redish face.ahahas..
think need to wear it everyday till my redish face recover.ahahs..
stupid joshua oways go and tried to pull my cap away. oways findin miee trouble.
ahahas...

today in msn he seem to be quite extra happy?
ahahas....
i'm happy oso becos he's happy!?
ahahs...

so down today

today damn down and pissed with myself yaa.....
sigh.....

i think i could done better for maths test.
all careless mistake siaa..
pissed with myself.
this make miee so feel down da whole dayy.
useless mieee...

andd today on da way to schh.. took da same lift as him.
we're like stranger!! never even say a hi or wadever..
so sad... spoilt my mood..
why our frenship become like this??!!
but he still make a point to msged mie to tell mie sorry, for replyin my msg late. and said that he not in any relationship now yaa... after that no reply le... is he still care?
dont think so bahss... dont want to be too hopeful le..


-wo dui ni yi shi xin le...

today was my niece alexis 1 month old!!!
ahahas...
shiao en came over to my place to wishh..
hahas...

after that went to bishan to meet josh J...
too bored le...
in da end met eunice,lay,terence,gene and his fren.
took neos again...
dont really like da neos actually.
cos too many pples yaaa. so not nicee...

brought a bag for shiao en.
brought a bag for myself too..
her is white..
mine is green?!!!
am i crazy?
hahas...
i hate green and yellow man!!
but i still brought that colo.
no choice that colo suit miee better than whitee...
ahahass....

when i was on da way home.
met my pri schh teacher!!
hahahas...
he look much "older"
ahahas...
last time he used to be quite "charming" de..
but now.... hahas...
time pass very fast...
pple aged easily...
hahas...

shit....
i got chem and maths test tml...
havent study yet...

burnedd

i'm a bit burned!!!
hahas...
went hougang swimmin complex swimming with candy in da morning.
felt that da sun not big or hot enough?
ahahas...
mostly we talked in da poor not swimmin ya.
coz da pool got soooo many pples yaa...
dont have much place to swim.
heesss....
just wanna relax!! after studies for 5 days? ahahas...


after da swimmin.
candy went church with miee.
yeahh~
da preacher ps james was quitee good....
hahas... made we all laughted...
ahahss....

after that went to hearland with candyy....
da purpose is to take neoprints?.. hahas.. yeaa...
we had a wonderful talked?
hahas...
my darling.
da one who know miee da most!!
hahas...
foinf 5yrs fren yaa...?
left hearland mall at 8+pm.
was msgin rain.
he's damn funny and cutee siaa...
bleahs =p

went to back to church after heartland mall.
hahas.... to meet my josh,mag and joy to chill ard..
waited for their practice finish.
den after that went to chong chong to eat eat eat...
hahas...
pigg horr?
heess....

i need to get over it, jiawen

today was a tired day ya.
finally pass my phy test...
happy that i understand da maths today. lurve this chapter. my best.....


went to bugis with su fen, jia lin and mei hui today after schh...
den after that went to meet mag....


todayy got too many sad things in my mindd and heart...
feel like crying.
but i just cant cry out....
my tear are dryy...
nth i can do abt it..

i need to get over it, jiawen!!!


-all i can do is to wish you happy... [this is my prayer for you]

happy

yeahhss...

happy...

not that broke le.
my dad just gave miee some money!!!
but must save de. next time den can buy thing mahs.

gonna save money to buy sonic-edge thingss.?!
and save for next time if i can buy a vespa 2 yrs later??
must start saving yaa...
ahahas.. bleahs =P

tinkin whether want to go for adult cell group tml notx.....
if not mayb accompany mag to do mandi and pandi?
but i'm not gonna to do... very waste money for miee....
ahahas....

candy is going for youth service with miee this sat!!
yeahhss...
pray that sebastian will come. informed him le. he said maybe going.

movie

i just watched "constantine"!!
wooos.... it's a nice show man...
ahahas....
ohhya... watched with shiao en...

da movie shows how scary da hell is...
full of demon and firee...
da demon is very scaryy....

heaven is da wonderful place!!
yeaa?
da angel got wings!!
so beautiful yeaa...

like da constantine!!
he's damn handsome and cool siaa?
ahahas.....

ohhhhh yaaaa...

forgot to add on something!!!

my darling shiao en is back!!!!

finally came back from m'sia.....
hahahs...

misss you loadsss =)

sian

siann arhh...

schh was half day today.
schh ended at 12.30om.
but left da schh at 1.30pm.
help da su fen they all to clean da schh floor....
pples all thougth is my punishment for being late for schh...
nooo lorr... only late for a few mins sch till now. added up not even half an hour. so it's not late hor! ahhaas...
ohhyaa... i got full marks for my maths retest. put in lots effort okays..
hahas... crazyy arhh...


went to sentosa today...
no sun siaa...
wasted my money...
arghh.....
i wanna get tann...
so fair now siaa...
yuckk...
dont want to be yellow...
hahas
hate yellow man....


ohhyaa...
must thanks my darlin candy for writtin miee testi!!
a very sweet testi..
really encouraged miee ya.
she knows miee better, yeaa?
maybe..
ahahas...
although we oways quarrel but we will never leave each other dee...
haahs...


-stop crying for youu...