went to NP today.
was kinda bored?.
but not too bad yaa.
at least i learnt something.hahas.
thinking after my Os. should i take media course?. see how yaa. (:

wahs.these few days real tired man.
only slept lyk 3hrs for these few days?.
so went back to sleep after NP.
but only slept lyk 1+hrs?.not enough man..
but no choice yaa.got to woke up to do alot of things.lyk now...blogging.ha.

ohhyaa..
met ben today at amk mrt when i was on da way home.
but i din say hi to him. cos not in da mood?. and was so sudden?lol.sorry lar.
while you changed alot so do i (:


these fw days.my mood not that good yaa..
think bcos STRESSED and PMS bahs?ha.

think abt my maths's project grp.
nicholas and melvin oways got mie into boiling water.!
oways said wanna help up for maths. then in da end... MIA!. or just talk some useless shit out of your mouth only.
then ms jas kept asking we to include you two. how to? when you two keep MIA and so hack care lyk this. haiss.. poor mie and mei hui.
nvm yaa... if need to write remark abt you two. i'll know wad to write. rest assure :D

went CHC for service yday.
i'm surprised that i went.
cos i din plan.

well, what should say abt CHC service?
hmmm... feels lyk home?
cos their service almost da same as my church.
just that their sermon were kinda short?.
lyk their praise and worship.not bad.
yday sermon was "make a room for God".

i'm searching my heart...
i know sometimes i left God out of my room.
and din appreciate Holy spirit well enough.
took everythings for granted.

God condemned my heart.
abt my cell grp.
yea.i din commit much for my cell.
where is my love and care for my cell?
is all lost now..
i'm reali got to be slap!..
God anoints mie and da rest to lead da cell.
but i din do my job. what a cell leader am i.~!

where is my passion?
where is my fire?
where is my desire?
where is my commitment?

-12092005.1237-0315.-

msged you to wish you gd luck.
and you replied.
and on and on.
da conversation started for 3 hrs with just a normal sms.
for so long we never sms for so long.
i'm happy.
are you?.
but da feeling wasnt there anymore?.
i dont know.
i'm searching my heart.
you want to chat on da phone.
but i dont want.
cos i dont want to fall in too deep again.
you asked mie one question.
you wanna know wad i treat you as now?.
i replied 'friend'..
is that da ans from my heart?.
think so and hope so.
i still rem your promise that you made to mie.
but are you?.
guess you had alrdy forgotten?.
da msgs, da pics and da memories is still there.

been really busy for lots of projects.
really drive mie crazy... i'm really damn stressed up.
last week was a damn pissed week?...
cos i worked. working as banquet. damn tough job?..yea.worked till midnite.but da pay alright lar..


can i just walk away and just leave my projects around?.
indeed. i'm realy very tired. guess most of them oso.

i'm surprised.
yeshh,reali surprised.
no jumping heart all this.
if i say, i dont have any more feeling for you is fake.
i know i still got a lil feelin on you.
sometime you makes mie fly but sometime you makes mie drop down from da beautiful moment.

-da memories is still there and da msg too-

yday was sch grand's opening.think will come out in da news. cos jack neo and others ministers was there... and we all lyk so freaking fake lor... when they came, we all kept clappin our hands loundly to welcome them..
but over all was not bad yaa.. hahas.i did enjoyed myself.hahas.. was there to show case my make up skill yaa...hahas.. buy my skill is suck arhh..hahahs...
just realised tht actually CHEC's some guys are quite vain siaa...
hahahas... they asked mie to help them draw eyeliner siaa...
i helped kenneth,edwin gordon, yong loon and even alex to draw eyeliner!.lolss.vain guys!

left sch at ard 3pm..so damn late can.lolss.. was helped to arrange back da chairs and tables. such a good student ritee?..hahas...
after that headed down to MS to have some drink. den went to a shop which sellin alot of sweets.chocolate..etc.. well, i'm so amazing that they got sell willy wonka's chocolate! and they oso giving away 5 tickets of visitation of da factory siaa..so amazin man!.. tot this will be in da fairly tale or wadever. but is happen in this reality world. Charlie and the chocolate factory will be real?.lolss..

is fairly tale real?..lolss...

JJ once told mie.. only pple whose believe in fairly tale can go and watch peter pan!.lols...

well, after that.. headed down to celebrated bday for my grandma!...
da celebration was not bad yaa... but not alot of pples were there... think bcos of works.hais...
bros never come.. think grandma was kinda sad tht he din turn up!...haiss...

just wanna wish my grandma, happy belated 71th bday!!
I LOVE YOU LOTS ((:
MUACKS....

just came back from airport..
i'm sad, yeshh..i'm really sad...
tried holding back my tear, but i cant..
my tear just kept on rolling down lyk tap water.
sorry, i kn0w you dont want mie to cry when you leaving. but i just cant...

i will sure miss you for sure.

Father Lord,
i pray that You will keep shiao en safe whenever she go oh Lord..
whenever she miss da home, feels lonely, down and wadever problem she facing. Father Lord you will be there for her yaa... teach her and guide her oh Lord... i commit her in Your hands oh Lord in Jesus name i pray Amen...

have faith and believe?...


today i cried...
think most of da youth's gals in church cried...
shiao en is leaving tml. REALI LEAVING!....leaving to UK to study!...
guess tml da whole church will be going to send her off?...

i know shiao en dont want we all to cry... but i cant help it!... i'm quite emotional!...i will definitely cry for suree... 100% sure!...even now i alrdy startin to cry!...*useless mie*..




-*keep on dancing even though the music's stopped..-

super super pissed with "HL niu nai....
dont be so hypocrites can?!...
infront of guys oways act lyk very good lyk that and talk until so nice.and oway act lyk an angel.!
den infront of mie, another kind!...

wad if you reali pretty'?!. so wad?!!not every guys will fall on your trick yaa..

i'm very kind enough tht i never show you attitude yet.. and i never confront you infront of pples yaa....
i dont know wad to say abt you yaa..
sometime you're good but sometime you're bad too...
although you're christian too... my sis in christ. but dont let mie dont lyk you can...!