heart decision

Well, another burden today.
Maybe i should not say is a burden. A heart decision need to make.
I believe God is doing something great in my life now. Everything that i just come in thought or prayed. God answered, is just like a "click" and God answered. And recently few months back, i just say say and tell God about it, and God open this door for me. But i am scared, cos i didnt know that God will allow it to happen. And i didnt prepare for it, everything just came in too suddenly that shocked me. I'm happy God called me, but is really not easy. I dont want to disobey God, follow Jesus or follow the worldly? Although that is my desire, but somehow i need to be reality. What will my parents think? They will probably disagree with me? So many things needs to be consider. I know He will work things out.

I was praying about this and asked God about it. God showed so clearly to me thru Bible and Song. After church today, when on my way to work in the train.. Suddenly i took out my Bible and God directed me to the verses He want me to read. 1 Kings 3:1-14. I know God is speaking to me. I know.
So after work, when on my way home... Again God put a song on my lip and i started to sing.... "standing in Your presence". Here it go (one of the verse)...

YOU'VE CALLED ME, I WILL FOLLOW
YOUR WILL FOR ME I'M SURE
LET YOUR HEARTBEAT BE MY HEART'S CRY
LET ME LIVE TO SERVE YOU CALL

I am still making the decision.. I remembered, Ps Phua recently just preached about "Make Heart Decision". Listen to your heart? I am. I will pray about it. I will listen to what my heart is saying.

And recently God been reminded me of His goodness and mercy to me. Every memories i had with the Lord all just flowing into my mind. The love He had shower me all these years back. The bad time i had been thru and how God always be there for me and solved the problems. His presence is always soooo real. If i didnt know Christ, dont know how my life would be? I think i will be probably in drugs, party days and nights and have sex and all. Then i will be wasting my life away. yea, maybe? Cos i'm a wild person actually (haha). I am always so thankful that God saved me. I'm proud to say that "im a Christian". He's my Creator, my Bestfriend, my Beloved. Yesh, He will always be... the LOVE of my life. loveyadaddy!!

Standing In Your Presence

Standing in Your presence

Lord my heart my life are changed

Just to know You and to live to

See Your beauty and Your grace

Heaven and earth cry out Your name

Nations rise up and see Your face

And Your kingdom is established

As I live to know You Lord

Now I will never be the same

Spirit of God my life You've changed

And I will forever sing Your praise

I live to know You more

I live to know You more

You've called me, I will follow

Your will for me i'm sure

Let your heartbeat be my heart's cry

Let me live to serve You call