My Heart is Heavy

Somehow, my heart is heavy.
Everybody is moving on, how about me?
Will i stay the same?

Two more days and its gonna be 2009, thats fast.

RS

So long never blog...

Well, i just chatted with a friend online. I was talking about RS with her and something came out of my mind when we were chatting.

"Somehow i feel, liking a person can be so heart broken. Why still go and like? But when God send the chosen one, God will give you the courage to love."

I'm amazed that i said that out. Haha.

Anyway, i think i won't get into RS now or soon. Well, i dont need it. Hmmm.. Is quite true that if i really go into RS, will my heart still 100% for God? I doubt so, half of the space will be fill with someone else. I will always remind myself that, no matter which guy i like. God will be the center of my life.

I have to be hard on my heart.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

TWENTY years old now!
myGOSH! Im so old liao! twenty Twenty TWENTY!
next year will be 21... then next next year will be 22.......23....24....!

Im tired

Why does things always didnt go well as what i want? There's always hope but there's always disappointment too. I fall but i always get up and try over and over again. But this time i feel so tired.... How i wish my heart is make of rock, so that it wont be broken so many times. So tired, so tired.


Daddy, i need a rest. Give me the peace, i ask.

i just dont want to try anymore, its always ended up with disappointment. so tired.

(:

i willing to try even though i know that it might be impossible? i dont know. Just give it a shot! At the end of the day, i will tell myself "at least i tried". For this im gonna take slowly at a time, im not gonna rush into it.


It takes time to build the connection and the relationship (:

Bored

Took some test in facebook just now due to bored. haha.


One of the test is "which hairstyle suit you more?"

so after asking so many questions, the ans is rihanna's and victoria beckham hairstyle!

well, i will cut my hair sooon! been wanting to cut that. haha.



another test is "What kind of guy you would fall for?"


The ans is : You would fall for the frat boy.

Handsome right? HEEs..

You like to have a good time, and you want someone who's not afraid to go all out to have fun with you. Your man may belch at the dinner table, but you know you'll always have a crazy night ahead of you!


haha, its very true! This is what kind of guy i would like. haha.





3rd test "What College Best Suits Your Personality?"

:. Party School!

You're a people person. You're everyone's best friend. You like to talk and hang out with your buddies. Grades are a secondary priority, if they're a priority at all. No matter what your parents say you can probably still get a fairly decent job in sales or PR.



im now in sales line. (:

Cats are Evil

Saw this from one website. Check out!

Photographic Proof That Cats are Evil and Plan World Domination

This will never happen

discovered that grandma's stomach grow a stone in it. I dont know what's that call.. Is very dangereous for her to go for operation for her age now as she having heart problem. If percentage of opertaion successful is minor then my family rather my grandma not go for operation. When i heard of this news from my mum, my heart stopped for a second. I cant imagine if one day my grandma leave me. Yesh she will leave me someday but not now! She's still young! Not even 80! She's just 70++. I think probably i'll cry until i get blind. I love my grandma a lot ALOT.

just shut up and live

i crushed my anger on the wall again. know i shouldnt but is the way where i throw my anger at.
this blog of mine have been more and more emo. friends that read my blog, dont ask me what happen 'cos my lip is seal. i really hate that kind of feelings, its suck to the hell. im sick of it... im no longer the "i" i used to be. Even my BFF Candy also said that.. She asked me some of the questions i been avoiding and not think about it. Well, i know im running away with it. Im just shut up and live, life would be easier. nobody will understand how i feel.




have You let go of me? im such a disappointment.

dont sail away from me

alone on a sail
boat lost at sea
i did not recognize the skies above me
my compass was just spinning round and round
it was just spinning 'round and then with a gust of wind
things changed set off on a course that seem to me quite strange
i was heading through the air
straight for the mood
straight for the the mood
and when i landed
he took my hand we dined
and we danced with the stars
he asked me to stay in this dreamland but the wind called out
so i went instead then he turned to me and said don`t sail away
don`t sail away from me
don`t sail away
we could have such a lovely time
don`t sail away
don`t sail away from me
don`t sail away
you could stay and just be mine

i told him not this time

the wind carried me across deep spaces

i visited many times and many places

i drifted 'til my boat came to a stop on destiny`s roof top in side

i played chess with destiny

i saw a way to win so very easily

but he was taking far too long to make his move destiny wouldn`t move

so i turned my boat back towards that dreamland

and i filled the sails with my breath

when i landed

he took my hand though the wind called out i remained instead

he still turned to me and said don`t sail away

don`t sail away from me

don`t sail away

we could have such a lovely time

don`t sail away

don`t sail away from me

don`t sail away

you could stay and just be mine

i like to stay for a life time

don`t sail away

don`t sail away

i like to stay don`t sail away

we could have such a lovely time

you could stay and just be mine