-For the moments I feel faint

Am I at the point of no improvement?
What of the death I still dwell in?
I try to excel, but I feel no movement.
Can I be free of this unreleasable sin?

[Chorus:]
Never underestimate my Jesus.
You're telling me that there's no hope.
I'm telling you your wrong.

Never underestimate my Jesus
When the world around you crumbles
He will be strong, He will be strong

I throw up my hands
"Oh, the impossibilities"
Frustrated and tired
Where do I go from here?
Now I'm searching for the confidence I've lost so willingly
Overcoming these obstacles is overcoming my fear

[Chorus]

I think I can't, I think I can't
But I think you can, I think you can
I think I can't, I think I can't
But I think you can, I think you can
Gather my insufficiencies and
place them in your hands, place them in your hands, place them in your hands

am so long never update alrdy.
i'm busy mugging for my exams yaa.

had fever since last friday till monday.
terrible!.now better.. my bad headache and giddy was killing mie that time.!.
so stressed.think i overworked myself alrdy!..

my bday is so near alrdy.
but yet i din feel happy at all.
i din feel excited or wadever that last time i used to.
i dont know. maybe bcos of exam yaa?. never think of my bday.
anyway.. is just a normal day yaa...

past this few weeks i din laught that often that i used to. _a gal wif a fake smile_
i'm really down. mean real down!
sometimes i feel lyk bursting out my crys. but i cant.
if i do, i dont lyk to cry infront of pple yaa...

rem 1+week ago.
i cried my way home after school.
i was so damn stressed up.
i control my tears not to cry in school.
deep in my heart i reali wish pple to comfort mie.
but in da end i turn to God for confort not human.
cos my God know mie da best... yea.

sighz...i got no confident that i can pass for my exam yaa!.although i got study!.

"i wanna seek You."
"i wanna desire You."
"i wanna loves You."
" All i want is You, JESUS!"

PS DENNIS came to church today!!.finally!.
i lead children church worship today. still scary.ha.but alright yaa..

after service went lil india today for lunch.ha. da food there damn nice!.ha.
ps dennis was there too... da fellowship was good.
i'm so happy. he's forever my fav pastor!.ha.
he will be in spore for next 3 yrs so must treasure him!.ha.

everyone is mugging very hard for exam siaa..
wad abt mie?. hais..
must start mugging alrdy.

mei hui just told mie that sab is gonna open chalet on dec!
she said, sab had invited him to come and he agreed!.
den mei hui asked mie to go oso.
but i'm surprised that my replied was " see how yaa"..
if normally i will say.. i want to go or other happy reply!.but this time am not....
think maybe cos 'my heart had alrdy grow cold'.....

*wait until my heart can grow cold*

wad a bad day i had today.
went all da way to harbourfront to go sentosa but in da end rain!
so head back home to slp. ha.
in da end overslept for youth service.
was lyk 20mins late.
den after youth. waited for JJ they all to finish worship practice den go for dinner.
in da end when they finished practice, my mommy msged mie said that she cooking my dinner alrdy so din have dinner wif them. head back home. neway, i lyk to eat my mommy's cook food!.hahas. nice *thumbs up* (:

think will go sentosa on tues?.ha.i wish ((:

hmmm...
yday i was quite upset.
hais...
i'm such a foolish freak!.
why i help you and encouraged you to dont give up da one you lyk?
still teach you wad to do!.
and mie myself still lyk you. isnt i foolish?.
i can feels that my heart is very pain yaa..
but i still support you...

dont you feel it?
sigh...
wadever.

you will never know... )=

life is never fair yaa..

yeshh..
if one day i can go heaven, i will ask God 'why life will never be fair?'.

went to circus yday.
was fun.not bad.funny.
was taking care of da KIDs.
da kids reali brighten up my day man. they're cute. i lyk kid!.ha.

wanted to go CHC for service tonight one yaa.
but in da end. i went home. cos i need to spend time wif my mommy. she will be going thai for her working re-treat. well, will miss her yaa..

only one word can describle how i feel now.
i'm "tired"....

just came back from austin hill yday evening.
had a wonderful 2 days 1 nite there.
wad if i can leave this place den will be so good that i wont be so stressed up.
took half day leave from da sch to go m'sia austin hill.
thanks God da sch allowed.cos actually must apply 7 days before da day.
i only applied lyk only one day before da day?. hahas...
but i missed those presentations. is 3 presentation! poa,chem and phy!.
but nvm yaa....

went for a swim at austin hill.
was very fun indeed.made mie forget all da problem.ha.
after da austin hill. when on da way to s'pore. we stopped at one shopping centre to shop.
wahs...i'm amazed that da shopping there is so lyk heren in spore. or even beta?.ha..got lots of stuff. next time i wanna go back there again!..hahahs...bring many many money.! ha.shopping!!hahhas.....

ohhyaa... jason got detained by da police when we crossin da causeway.
cos he brought a few packets of gum back.. hahas.. funny sia. thanks God, da police never check his CDs. hahahs.. must be jason look suspicious. hahahs... thanks God that He gave mie a innocent look.hahahs..


yday, while celebrating bday for my cousin.
his dad mean my uncle yaa.. he admitted to hospital.
bcos he cant breath normally. need to go for operation. is heart operation yaa!!!.
pray that my uncle will be alright yaa. not yet know when he will go for operation yaa.. ):


today children church celebrated children's day.had amazing race!.
was fun. mie and da others sheperdee in-charge one grp. lyk a daddy mommy bringing childrens out siaa.. hahahs.. indeed was fun! hahahs....
there was three grp played da amazing race.
my grp won da sec place. not that bad lar...anyway is not matter whether we won or not win. main thing is that we all did enjoyed alot!. hahas...

thought ps dennis will be coming to church. but never see him..
i so damn miss him...hais..
hope to see him soon. yea. reali hope.

well, after church went to bishan to slack. bishan is a BEST place to slack yaa..hahahs...
brought a skirt den mag brought a pair of cover heels.hahas. is very nice. cos is purple.hahahs...

think next week i cannot slack anymore.
must study alrdy.
neway gtg and slp alrdy.(: