ohhyaa...

i'm fasting now for mission trip yaa...
i'm damn hungry yaa... one day only 1 meal yaa.
thanks God only from mon to wed!!...
but see how yaa... if i wanna continue till thurs or fri yaa..!! hees..

my new blogskin yaa.. nicee? heeshees (:

abt one week never post alrdy yaa..
veri lazy to blogg yaa...

life now seem to be so stressful yaa...
wad to do?... no choice yaa..
if i dont choose this path, i know i wont be that stress yaa...
but for my future den i must do it yaa....
i know my ability yaa.. i wont be able to do it...
but no choice yaa... nvm yaa... my life had planned by God, so He will be in control of everything yaa... i trust my God yaaa... i do my best den he will do da rest yaa...!.. amen yaa (:

arhhh..... i cant wait for mission trip yaa!!..
still got 1 more week b4 da mission trip yaa..
cant wait reali cant wait yaa!!!.
will be away for mission trip for 11daes yaa....
so pplesss dont miss mie yaaa...
wont be bringin hp yaa...cos scared later my hp drop in da river yaaa...

da mission trip to sarawak wont be that easy yaa... got lots of hardship yaaa...
think mayb i'll lost weight there. cos we all gonna eat cans food (sandin and dont know wad brown meat) and maggie mee there!!!!
i dont lyk to eat can food and maggie mee yaaa.. i think i will bring chilli there!!... know alot of pples will laught at mie for bringin chilli there..! but i lurve chilli yaa!!
hmmm.... i gonna bring pocky!! lolss... see how yaa... cos cant bring too many thingy yaa.. each person only got ard 7-10 kg of thingy to bring only yaa....
thinkin how to bath there?... bath at da river?.. lols...must wear sarong yaa!!!
ahahhas....

finally backk to bloggin...
maybe da next few days wont be bloggin yaa..
cos EXAM yaa!!..
and my MSN got some pro..!! cant login ya...
nvm yaa... newae, good oso yaa... so i wont spend so many hrs online yaa...lols...

20052005
sch was fine yaa.. nth muchh..still as stress yaa...lolss.
went for cell on fridae yaa..
hees...veri long nv go for cell alrdy.
wanted to catch a movie with josh...cos we had alrdy said that fridae go watch movie.
but in da end.. i went for cell yaa.. cos i feel so guilty if i go and watch movie when exam is reali veri near yaa...so decided to go for cell yaa.. [sorri josh!!...]
da date on fridae so nice yaa 20052005!!..lolss...


22052005
todae sermon kinda a bit bored yaa...
maybe i'm just tired yaa...
hmm... suddenly i felt so miss God yaa..
i dont know whyy... i'm driftin away from god?..think so bahs..
but he oways nv leave miee yaa.. i had take God for granted at times .i know yaa..

todae tommy taught mie POA yaa...
not tht bad... can understand bahs..

anddd....ahahas... went dinner at bao xin wif john,toby,daniel,liangyi,se...etccc..they all...
lolss....he was there!!... took a few pics of him.. of cos he dont know larr..but i deleted!..only left one yaa...lolss....he's air head man!..lols...
ohhyaa...i said sth paisehs todae yaaa....lols...i dont reali mean it yaa!!>.<
after that went shiao en's hse. she taught mie maths.and after that home sweet home yaa..
its was a tired dayy yaa!!..

feel for da pples at sarawak?..
sometime i can feel it?..
everytime when i was prayin abt da sarawak thingy.. da feelins oways so strong yaa..
i dont know how to put in words man...

.:pls let my heart lurve them yaa..keep them in my prayer yaa...

just cut my hair.finally!.
ahaas..but i miss my long hair.although my hair now is still long but not as long as last time yaa..nvm.. will grow it backk yaa..ahahas..

went to meet candy ydae yaa!.
we had lots of fun yaa..
now i still miss her yaa... ahahas..
alright, maybe next wed, we gonna meet out again?..ahhas.
see how yaa.. got exam yaa.. lurve her yaa. (:
just discover sth from her!.. but nvm... i still lurve her yaa.lols (:

hmm.yea.i'm angry wif him but not upset.but no use yaa.newae, he's not a wrothy person for mie to upset or angry abt yaa.hahas... so immature yaa..
youu wanna delete da testii. go ahead!. just go ahead and delete!.you think i care tht much?.maybe last time i used to care.but not now yaa.. you're deeply out of my heart.reali no point yaa... wanna ah bishh youu!!...fuck off.

my God is da best yaa..
nv leave mie when i'm down and sad yaa..
andd nv disappoint miee..
ahhahas..so i lurve my God alot alot.!..

pple...pls say "i lurve you" when youu reali mean it okays!.
dont say it just for fun or just to make tht person feel happy can!.
so fake siaa...

arhhh...
life still go on and on..
ii enjoyin my single worldd hood.
althought sometime i do wish for a bf.
but whyy i need a bf for?..
hahas.. i got frens yaa...
but sometimes i do feel lonely...etc
but nvm.. i got FRIENDS yaa...
hahahhas...

heyy

JOSHUA!!.. happy 22nd bdae!!!
lurve yaaa.... muackss yaa...

backk to sch againn...
how i wish its weekend.
but weekend oways seem to pass so fast yaa..

backk to stress again.
todae was super super stress yaa..
SCH WORK SCHH WORKss!!!..

i'm down once againn!
feel lyk gonna break down soon...
indeed, i'm reali!..

holdin and holdin backk my tearss..
i dont know whyy..
i reali control my tears until gonna cant take it yaa..
maybe just STRESs yaa...
yeaa.i am!..


todae never even look and say "hi" to him.
whenever he walk tht way den i will walk da other wayy yaa..
ahahas.. andd i nv go and chat wif him when he's online now..
ahahas.. I DONT WANT!!.. youu will be gone in my heart yaa..althought it's hardd yaa!!.. i will tryy my best yaa to kick you lyk a ball out of my heart far far away!...lols...


miss candyy alot.!.
gonna meet her on wed.
i called her during my 10 mins breakk for miss paulin class..ahahs..
she's still as lovely yaa..! my darling!..ahahs..
we're still as close as last time yaa.. although she's in her workin world now and i still in my schh world.!.hahas...i still lurve her...ahahs..muackssss...

went town todae after churchh yaa...
was fun yaa...ahahs..
and stupid cris suddenly beng my headd siaa....
headache now siaa... cris!! see wad you did to miee...
was havin a great time wif youu guyss!! reali reali fun yaa..ahhas and funny..
was all da way kept takin pic wif cris.. she just brought a new phone!..ahas..

went town with mei hui ydae after schh.. exam comin liaoo.. we still go town and slackk..ahhas...cos stress mahs..after one week of studies yaa....ahhaas..
met richard and violet. anddd cristal (my darling) andd her mum... at town ydae!. ahhas.

left ard 1 week den exam liaoo...havent reali prepare yet siaa..haiis...

newae... gonna go study in church later at 11am. liang yi will be teaching miee yaa..

someone pls MOTIVATE mie plssss!..
anddd i gonna fall sickk soon...keep mie in ur prayer?..hees.. thankss arhh.. (:

met se for lunch yaa b4 goin schh...
she finally backk.. missed her dearly yaaa..
lurve her yaaa..mahahas....


i dreamt of him once again.but its not reali that good yaa...
haiss...wadever yaa...


ohhyaa... ray todae wore until lyk x'mas tree siaa...*sshhh*...
aahhas... MAXIE hor?..hees... :P

i'm down again...
feel lyk cryin.
but i hold back my tears.
i'm super stress ya..


-useless mie-

ii dreamt of youu....

da feeling is soooo nicee...


only in my dream...
i can have youu...
and talkk to youu...

i feel lyk i'm standing alone myself.
no one caree..
i feel lyk i'm facing all problems to myself.
no one to look for..

i'm crying right noww... RIGHT NOW!..

i'm yearning for Youu to help miee...
God, when i need you da most.. are you there?..
i'm reali need you oh God..

.:pls help miee all my needs i pray...


-i'm yearning for Youu to be there-

sch was fine yaa..
know more new frens yaaa.hahas.

i'm stress up for schh work yaa..
i'm afraid i will fail all my subs.. i dont have any confidence in all da subs. even chinese is my best sub among all subs, i still have no confidence in it.. cos my chinese very sucky now yaa..
i dont wanna be a "loser" in my class yaa. i'm afraid i will be in da last position in class!.. and i will let my teachers (especially ms jas) down and even my mommy!...

i'm reali afraid!....

sometimes i reali feel lyk givin up!..
i'm useless man~
why i so useless?!..
knowin tht my study alrdy not good nemore. still go and take private Os...
no matter how hard i tried, its still da same!...


-crying for help-

finally got da shoes i wanted for so bloody long...
went town to get tht shoes yaa..ahahas.. thanks you guys for accompany mie! (:
i'm happy!.. cos its my saved money for a few months/weeks.ahahs.da feelin is lyk sooo good tht youu saved money and buy things for urself.. hees.. everythings i buys, i provide myselff... cos mommy no money alrdy. gonna save money for others things (:



.: ps: thanks richard for da 10 bucksss yaa !..muacksss (:

oOhhyaa....

i lurve chatting with MAXIE TAY this babe!...

ahhaas.. (:

maxie... see your name there alrdy? it's big and bold!..ahahas..

went lunch with cherm in da afternoon.but i never eat.cos eaten at grandma hse le..hees...her cookin is oways very nicee ^^

den went church yaa for youth service. after that stay for practice yaa.
den went dinner with...dan,nis,john,JJ,mag,jason and richard... was very fun.had a very very full dinner. until i cant even walk... .:lurve them loads:.
i tried to be super happy todaee yaa...ahahhas.happy until a bit "siao"..ahahs..cos want to gain back wad i had lost ydae. ydae was sad. so must be happy todae! ahas... *crazy miee*

was veri moody yday.
not in a good mood.
feel so downn..of cos emo oso..
after schh..dont feel lyk going home yaa..
so went out until quite latee...
wanted to drink alcohol.den cant find.
da stupid 7eleven yaa.. stated that after 9pm den cant buy alcohols.wth.
ahhas...ohhyaa..ate brownie yaa..but suckss yaa..aahas..

i'm down with my study and my personal lifee..
ahaiss.... i reali miss tht time at FC yaa... when think of tht time with y0uu, my tears will roll out of my eyes. but i oways control myself not to cryy.. i need to be strong yaa. it's da past, i shld not think it again.i wish i will...ahais..
i look happy in da front but actually i veri lonely and sad inside...

-feel so discourage yaa-


God.. i need you right now. are you there?..


.:ps. mei hui, thanks for accompany mie for da whole nitee yaa. lurve yaa (:

went sentosa in da morning yaa with mei hui..
ahhaas...finally.veri long time never go liaoo...
met jeremy there.ahahas.he was friendly yaa?ahahs..so different from schh yaa...

and i so reddishh now siaa...ahahhas...


-i lurve sun-

make up class was fun yaa...
that's my skill?..
ahahas..

i'm back to bloggin...

went m'sia (austin hill) on sun for leader's retreat.
were fun yaa...a break for miee yaa... but still veri tired yaa..ahahas..
got to kick soccer there wif da guys.ahahas.fun yaa... i simply in lurve wif soccer man~...ahahas..
ahiss... never get to swim!..cos i cant..arghhh.....
da fellowship were goodd. bring each of us together.
just know sth..they're so sweet!


da sarawak trip is coming.cant wait.but scary yaa.it will be a tough mission trip yaa..we all shall have no fear man..! cos God will take care of everything yaa!!..hahas..


i miss shiao en yaaaaa........