i am really happy. yeahh, you always put a smile in my heart. there's assurance.



as i hand over everything to God, trust and obey Him. i know He will never short-change me (:
believing and awaiting for His promises. iloveyadad. heartt (:

be there for me

I am very down since yesterday. Many negative things keep coming in my thoughts thats make me feel so lousy of myself. Arghh..

I prayed. Yet i still cant get it. I know there's a reason why He never answer my prayer. I put my trust in God when i pray although there's some fear in me that so scared it will not be answer. That prayer is actually quite important to me. I've to focus on God, not on the worldly things. yaa..


Thanks so much for the message, i always believe that you're a gift that God send to me!
whenever i am down, from no where.. your message suddenly appear and brighten me up.
Must be the Holy Spirit that let you know. haha. saya rindu kamu too. (:

how to make myself more confidence?





Thanks God, you like that. is the brand you use.
we both got the right thing for each other, is what we wanted (:

dedicated

someone dedicated this song for me.
so sweet lar.

Luther Vandross

Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas

Have yourself a merry little Christmas
Let your heart be light
From now on our troubles will be out of sight

Have yourself a merry little Christmas
Make the yultide gay
From now on our troubles will be miles away

Once again as in olden days
Happy golden days of yore
Faithful friends who are dear to us
Will be near to us once more

Through the years we all will be together
If the faiths allow
Hang a shining star upon the highest bough
And have yourself a merry little Christmas night

im fine

well everything is fine already.
is just misunderstanding.
back to normal (:

cant wait for tml (;

feel cheated

i don't know which is truth. why you lied to me?
disappointed and upset. maybe i too naive.
believe whatever things you said.
perhaps i shouldn't trust anyone now?
even how close friend we are, you betray my trust.
feel so cheated.

please don't lie to me.ihate.


Jesus, take hold of my heart.
trust no man.

haha. purple and sliver?
sweet.

i will definitely like it, is the thoughts that count (:

hmmmm...
i feel that my world is falling, but my God will never fall, i know.

just a comments or small thing? can makes me feel sad.
it make me feel that "i'm a idiot".
maybe i think too much in the 1st place.

okays, i'll only trust God now.


shut all the nonsense now, when is not too deep yet.

bye, gonna slp.

think my phone bill really gonna cost me a bomb now.
bill will come on 23rd Dec. I've to come out with another $50 i guess.
so i think my bill will be around 100++.

i haven't get any Christmas present yet except for unexpected. ha.
been super busy with work and other stuff. So for the past 5 days i been sleeping for just 4-5 hrs only. think i'll just faint in the shop floor. haha.

so many many things need to do! how? i wish i have more than 24hrs a day.
will be a super tiring day for me tml. cos have to be in church at 8am tml to prepare a mini children's party for the childcare kids! after the party, i've to go straight to work from there then work until 1030pm. God, give me more strength to carry on!.

wad i need to do these few days:

wednesday: 8am-12pm mini xmas party for childcare kids.
2pm-1030pm work.

thursday: 1030-6pm work.
6pm onward.. look for xmas's presents, meet mag to pass her sth, prepare the guad for the P6s.

friday: morning => go pluck eyebrow, presents. P6s guad.
1-11pm work.

saturday: 10-6pm work.
6pm onward xmas service.

sunday: CHURCH morning till noon.
evening makan at sharmaine's place.

monday: caroling with the youth at diff home.
PARTY TIME! haha.

see how tire i gonna be!!!!!!!!!.



every single msg unexpected send me, it always bring a smile to my heart.
but also bring a hole to my pocket. haha.

"saya rindu kamu"

unexpected

Didn't know that actually got friends read my blog,
so i got to be more careful when I'm blog already. haha, but still... here will be where i can blog my feelings out.


was a tiring day today, am kinda pissed with my work (of cos some of the peoples there).
had gastric, headaches, body aching during work. it was terrible! maybe i just dont have enough sleep bahs. sometimes i just cant understand, how can a person be so "kang chong" one. Their thinking is so square one like there's no alternative or whatever. Well, this time i really cant control my anger, so pissed. i just walked away without saying a "bye".

was messaging with joy last night, was talking about "long distance relationship".
well, i think is hard to have a long distance relationship. Is not easy, need to have loads of trust in each other. i always don't believe in long distance relationship will last, because the lover don't get to see each other. Maybe half year once or twice? We're human, of cos everyone will wish that your LOVE will be there physically when ya need him/her not just a call away. right?
Therefore, don't start a relationship when ya know that person will be going oversea and study or to work. Is not easy to maintain yaa. But i did see couples that in long distance relationship still faithfully together. That is God's blessing. (:

guess my handphone's bill this month will be a "bomb" to me!
outgoing calls at oversea (msia & thai) and send out many messages.

God bless me with $$! HA!.

Well, it always a nice and sweet one. Its started from a stranger then to a friend...

the unexpected. (:

surprised

well, surprised that he messaged me.
and because he thought about me, thats why he messaged me. So sweet lar. hehs. really, i didnt thought this will happened. hope is a good start. HAHA. i mean friend lar.


God is good, i just wanna praise Him! haha.. lalala
puji tuhan.

surrender

Well, through the camp, God taught me something.
God taught me how to surrender. Hmmm.. Is not easy to surrender. What i mean is.. Surrender my everything, even when I'm in the most worst down time. This is the hardest thing to surrender for me. because i always like to act strong in front of others and even God, not to even cry before God. Keep everything within myself, even my dark little secret. well, God actually know. He know everything, even just a small small thing, He also know. so i cant hide. He hear the cry in my heart. Ps David prayed for me, he said that God hear the cry of my heart. Then i started to cry and scream as loud as i want that makes me feel better. Because i have been control my tears for so long. God touches me once again. After cried, i felt so good. its had been so long, i never have a good cry already, the holy spirit lead me to cry, let go of everything. No shame crying before God, He hold my tears in his hands. He can feel it.

even my world is falling apart, i'll never let my savior go... i love you dad. (:

back from msia port dickson

i'm BACK from inter-church youth camp.
was definitely fun and fruitful.

seriously, i misses the camp now and the friends over there.
the sermon was great, its speaks to my heart. a refreshing to me.

will upload the photos SOON.


and oH..
came across this song during the camp by Hillsong new album.

SECOND CHANCE

You called my name
Reached out Your hand
Restored my life
And I was redeemed
The moment You entered my life

Amazing grace
Christ gave that day
My life was changed
When from my shoulders
Fell the weight of my sin

So it’s with everything I am
I reach out for Your hand
The hope for change
The second chance I’ve gained

On You I throw my life
Casting all my fears aside
How could greater love than this
Ever possibly exist

Consume my thoughts
As I rest in You
I’m now in love
With a Saviour
Bearing the marks of His love

So I’ll wait upon You now
With my hands released to You
Where a little faith’s enough
To see mountains lift and move

And I’ll wait upon You now
Dedicated to Your will
To this love that will remain
A love that never fails

BONKERS

gonna bonkers, due to the sales period. super super busy and tired.
never even have time to rest. just do and do like some mad cow. HA!

went to meet him my friend yesterday, was okays.
well, not as sweet as last time. soon i know the feeling will fade off lar cos i just wanna treat him as a friend (i'm trying lar) . so that i wont have too high hope on him. thanks God he dont know my blog add, if not i'll die. ahaha.

well, i'm not sure of my feeling for him anyway. maybe is good that i'm not sure.
HAHA.

ahya, anyway i still wanna know more guy friends not just stick for him anymore.
dont wanna waste my time off on someone who is not even sure of what he want.
I AM STILL YOUNG! nineteen nia! hahas.oh, he brought me bday's present. iurbanloveit.

ahyoo, i'm woking bloody full shift tml. and i still using computer now.
GOT TO GO AND SLP.

btw, i am sad over arii's leaving. but this is just part of life. everyone will have to leave one day to a better place for her. well, i wish that wadever place she go to will always be a best place for her and leave a impact in each and everyone life (like wad she did to me).
i believe that every friend that come along and leave foot prints on my life, is always a great blessing to me. cos friend is a gift from God. (:

so be my friend, i'll treat ya nice nice.
HAHA.
i'm talking nonsense now. gonna K.O alrdy.

one day to youth camp.
i'm seriously need a refresh fire from God again.


BYE dairy, will be back on sat. LOVE.