What a freaking day i had.

Was the worst day today, being condemn.
I keeps telling myself that don't let these little little things affect myself!
I was really pissed, blood was boiling.

If you wanna people to respect you, you have to respect others first!!!!

I might looks strong in the appearance but im actually weak in my heart.

My heart is fragile.

Somehow i feel like breaking down and cry and hide away from everyone.

But my pride and stubborness hold me back from my tears.

And i will tell myself "Jiawen, you gotten be strong! Let no one see you fall!".

How hard life can be, there are still many things i'm gonna go through. This is not the worst, there are sure even the worst one but I believe i can make it through the rainbow.

After the rain, there will be rainbow and after that my sunshine will come out!

All resentful, unhappiness and hurts will be clear in the name of Jesus, Amen! (:

Peace be with me :)

You are my sunshine after the rain.

Fruitful week (:

I had a fruitful week this week.
Was a great one, cos i able to meet out some of my friends.

23rd April

Outing with Shu fen (:

We went to HK Cafe at Cine, TIME ZONE (she insisted) and PS.

We had a great time. Ohya, heard from shufen that we gonna have photo exhibition again soon! It will be on 15th June (if i not wrong)! Mr Jimmy (my photography teacher) wants us (nine lives) to exhibit his and our art's work! It will be fun! So now i must bring my camera everywhere i go so i can take many nice pictures to show case our talent! Haha. Cant wait! It will be the second exhibition we gonna have!!! *excited*

25th April

Outing with Wei qing to SENTOSA :D

Courtesy of WQ.

See the reaction of WQ is so funny lar. HAHA.

YUMMY!

27th April

Outing with dear Meiyi :)

Our foods

Heart to heart talks with nobody business at the river side of Singapore River.

I HEART ALL OF THEM!! LOVED

5 Full rounds non-stop

Didnt blog for quite sometime, am trying to live a healthy lifestyle. LOL. By trying to sleep early and wake up early to jog. But i only jog when im on afternoon shift or even off. This is the second weeks that i started all this. When 1st starting i only can manage to run non-stop for the 1st two rounds then stop to walk for a round then run for the full 2 rounds again then climb up 13 storey to go home. Then this week my physical staminal became better! Able to run 5 full rounds NON-STOP! 1 round at my house's nearby garden consider around 3 quarter of a stadium size. haha, im quite happy with myself that i able to reach that 5 full rounds non-stop. Needs a lot of determination to finish that rounds. Every MINs and SECs i keeps telling myself not to give up! I hope by one month i can see the results. Hees.





Hust finished watching HK drama. "突围行动" is a very nice show. There's one guy in that show that i like.. You will be able to see him in many new HK drama. He's a newbie. His name is "Ron Ng 吴卓羲". Handsome arhh and his acting.. Good!





will update again, gonna go cut hair then work already. i still have many things wanna update.

Here without You, Daddy

How could I live without You
How could I survive without Your love
Without Your touch
You're the One that heals me
Cleanses my heart
And sets me free

Without You, my life is meaningless.
Without You, my life is empty.
Without You, I'VE NO LIFE!!


I am falling, will You be there to catch me?

Well, many friends kept asking me "why, what happened?", "why so emo?". Hmmm... I just don't know how to answer them. 'Cause I don't know how to tell them my problems. And i don't share my problems with others. I keeps everything within myself, no one will undestand how i feel. I found someone's blog that also wrote the same thing as me. " Sometimes i feel like throwing my phone away." I did wrote that in one of my entry, he probably will know how i felt. 'Cause i understand how he felt. Haha.


Jonah? Story of Jonah in the Bible?





When my heart is dying, renew it.

Is It You?

I'm looking for a lover not a friend
Somebody who can be there when I need someone to talk to
I'm looking for someone who won't pretend
Somebody not afraid to say
The way they feel about you

And I'm looking for someone who understands
How I feel
Someone who can keep it real
And who knows the way
The way I like to have it my way
And I'm looking for someone who takes me there
Wants to share
Shows he cares
Thinkin' you're the one that I've been waiting for

[chorus: 2x]

Is it you? Is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?

I'm looking for someone to share my pain
Someone who I can run to
Who will stay with me when it rains
Someone who I can cry with through the night
Someone who I can trust whose heart is right

And I'm looking for someone
And I'm looking for someone who understands
How I feel
Someone who can keep it real
And who knows the way
The way I like to have it my way
And I'm looking for someone who takes me there
Wants to share
Shows he cares
Thinking you're the one that I've been waiting for

[chorus 2x]

Take for granted how much I care (how much I care)
Appreciates that I'm there
Someone who listens
And someone I can call who isn't afraid of love to share

[chorus 2x]

Thank you.

My New Collection!!
ERNIE!!!

Given it by Ling Ling.

Is my ernie handsome? hees

The card that Ling wrote for me. Can see that is actually a Jay Zhou's post card. Dont know how many she took. Her fav!

Thanks Ling for the Ernie. Really LOVE IT! Especially when i needed some love now, she shown! (: In the card, one of the part, she wrote: " Just wanna say, i love you as my dear sister and wants you to stay happy forever and ever!". How i wish i can stay happy always. But reality kills. Indeed, she put a smile on my face. LOVE.

My Eyes Candy Now

TRESPASSER COLLECTION

Lovin it! Gonna get this! Eyeing for quite sometime already! But so expensive lar... Heard from Ling said that Marina square is selling it cheaper! Gonna go there and take a look!!

Break Down

Emotional down.
Tears been driping like nobody business.
Down with insomnia.
Feeling so terrible and horrible.

Can i just throw my phone away?
Can i just shut everyone down?
Can i, can i, can i???

I'm lost, losing, lose.

I cried deeply for help.
But where are You?
Do You hear my cries?

Lousy, inferior, brokeness.
I FREAKING HATE!


I need You the most now....

i misses mommy!!!

Think another 3 hours, mommy, grandma and aunt is reaching Korea.

Kinda of moody now, cause my mommy is out of town. I miss her muchiee.

Just havent even a day, i already missing her. Oh man!!! Feeling so lonely now.... The only thing i look forward to go home is all because of mommy. She's the only one in my family im close with. The rest arhh just "hi" and "bye". So pathetic huh? Haha, she's the only one i talk to mahs. Mommy will be only coming back on next wed!!! Eventually, she asked me to go korea also. But i don't want lar, although Korea is my love. Because if i go, ive to pay everything myself. Just air ticket and stay will cost up to 2K already lehs. And thats havent include food and shopping! I don't have so much money to spend....



I am kinda surprised that i will miss mommy that fast and soon, cause normally i dont. Probably because ever since i stepped into this working world, i always make time for mommy. I will always share with her some of my problem, especially those love shit thingy. I will tell her who i like and who broke my heart and who have an eyes on me. Haha. I will tell her everything! I think is good to share everything with mommy, cause its bring our relationship closer.



Hope mommy, grandma and aunt will enjoy this holis! And of cos, i will make sure mommy buy things back for me! I will msg to remind her! heeehee, i know im bad. :D Next time when i earn more money, i wanna treat mommy and grandma for holis!! (if able) haha. They're my LOVER in my earthly life. Haha.

IM GONNA GO CRAZY SOON WHEN LOVELY MOMMY IS NOT AROUND!!!!!!!!!

Do i look crazy? HAHA!

Ohya, as i looking back my photo thingy. I found this photos i captured quite sometime ago!! Something funny. I took this at Orchard Road when i was on my way to have my dinner. There was this guy carried a very tiny small bright yellow unbrella when his body size is even bigger than the unbrella itself and the shape of the unbrella is kinda funny lar. Main thing is, he lifted the unbrella until very high. Do you think the unbrella will prevent him from kanna the rain? Haha.

Tried to zoom in as much as possible, cause he was walking very fast.