Back to CHEC

Went back to Chec, felt that everything changed.
Last time our batch is more noisy. Haha.. And Chec is gonna move! End Of Dec!
How sad can it be... Our Familiar walk way, colourful walk way and homey place. I will miss the place for sure yaa.. Pray that they can find place to continues this private school. Wondering is Oschool also gonna shift too?

Went to East Coast Park's Coffee Bean to slack during evening time and had heart to heart talk with WQ, was a good one!
All we talking about was "God" and "Relationship". Though she never been going church "regularly", but her heart for Christ is still faithful. (: Isn't thats good? Pray that one day she'll able to find a cell group where she belong and her heart full of excitement when she go church regularly. I believe she will (: Cos God has never give up on her. ;)

Tomorrow is my last day at paragon, dont know how am i going to go through it. Make my heart strong and leave with a smile. I won't tears! I must do it!!!.

Today is Hosea's Birthday!!!!!

Happy Birthday, Hoseaaa! (though he cant see, i know kinda stupid. But nvm lar) Anyway i wishes him on msn already at around 2am. hees.

God bless this man of God!. :D

Its late, im gonna sleep now. BYE.

He just need to hear from me

I am still on my way to recovering. (:

God taught me something, if i wanna get my prayer answered. First, i must pray for myself. Even if i asked many of my my friends to pray for me, still God wanna hear the prayer from myself. The reson is just simple, God want me to call upon Him.

On monday's night, i had kinda lil high fever. My temperature was going up to 38.3 degree and i felt so cold inner part of my body and my outer part was so hot so i couldnt sleep. So i prayed a prayer to God, then after that i able to sleep through the night. Guess what, next morning.. My fever had gone and i went for my test paper and i passed. (: but i didnt get the marks i wanna get. I only got 86/100. Eventually i wanna get 96/100. Awww.. Anyway i thanks God for that. At lease i passed though i nearly fall asleep during the last part of the paper. Haha.. Still got another one coming.. Practical test!

I will be transfering to the other outlet this sunday. Adidas at Wheelock place! Although i dont wanna transfer to that place but i have to. They don't have enough in-charge there. I'll be second in-charge of the shop if i go there. Thats mean more task and responsibility. I dont know how can i be.... Kinda scared to go there and i've to adapt to that place too. The STOREROOM is very small compared to Paragon's storeroom and the people there that i dont really like. And i never work with that in-charge before. So many things need to adapt and completely need to re-remember where they put their stock and stuff. I comfirm will miss APRG very much. SO this sat will be my last day... 16 months and 21 days at APRG will end by sat. Hard to accept but have to accept.

SO please dont go Adidas at Paragon to look for me anymore, i wont be there. Instead at Adidas at Wheelock place.

For i know no matter which place i go, God's blessing will still on me.


keep my heart strong. With a smile, i will say my goodbyes. (:

im hot, im feverish....

OMG, im sick eh.
Fever came and visited me.

This morning i felt my body was aching like mad, and my brain is sprinting like marathon runner that is running for marathon and my throat were in pain too. So i went to measured my temperature. Guess what was my temperature? 38 degree! So i coudn't believe then i went to used another one and measured. Yea, same.... I went to visit my company doc that near by my house, but then the clinic closed at 12pm for lunch so i went to Orchard wisma to visit doc.. in the end, the doc also went for his lunch, asked to come back at around 230pm! By that time, my work started alrdy lar. so i went at 3 plus to see doc and waited for bloody 1 plus hrs. Anyway is my working hours, not my own hours so is ok lar. The doc wanted to give me two days MC, but i insisted dont want.. But he still issued me for stand by. My goodness, i still got test tml early in the morning. My mum always thinks that i got exam's fever, is been with me since young. Everytime i got exam, i alway fall sick and have nightmare.

God, please heal me.....

ok, im gonna rest. My head is sprinting, my throat and my gastric is hurting.

God bless me :D

So what now..............

How should i start?

I am starting to accept the fact, maybe i should go with an expectation? Might be better? Although i dont wanna leave, but then is just an process of life that still must move on yaa. Perhaps when i go over there, i might learn to be more independent? Thats good right? Alright, im trying to pinpoint all the positives. This is just a tiny process i've to go through, there're still even worst things that i need go through in my life. Whatever how hard life can be, i must go through with a SMILE. Cos Jiawen is not easily get beaten down by all the emotions, ugly human, reality and the world.. Movever her God is always there to give her strength and cover her with much of blessing. Right?

I wanna give thanks to peoples that hurted me and pulled me down with all the comments and attitude they gave to me. Seriously it did affected me, but that doesnt pull me down as much. Instead, its making me stronger. All i know that im not in the wrong, i just do what i need to do. Be righteous! (: I am not angry with them, cos i think is kinda childish to do that and God taught me to "forgive and forget" or should i say that.. God is still teaching me to "forgive". Is not easy you see, "forgive" someone that hurted you is not easy. God can do it? Why cant i? hur?

No more tears, no more negative.

But more, praise and joy.

No matter where i go, God's grace and mercy will be with me and His's blessing too.

btw, i wanna cut short hair! Should i???

Everyone, please pray for my test on this tues. i wanna get full marks for my paper. Im taking my senior's test paper so i can get promoted. I wanna show others that i can do it. Not just can do it, full mark!

Count down to six days.....

muchie sad

Im muchie sad, couldnt hold back my tears anymore.
I am tearing every here and there, but of cos not in front of my friends. especially man... I dont want to let anyone see my weakness. I'll stay strong and give my cheerful smile but inner me is bleeding real hard.

Dont ask me what happened. The more people ask, the harder to hold back my tears. I hate to cry in front of human, you see.

cried to God last night... In my deeper troubles, in my depression, in time of fear, only God i can go to... i need the peace of God and to make me stronger.

It gonna be alright someday and my heart will make even stronger than before, althought my world is falling apart. My God will never...

On my own- Barlow girl

I can't believe that I"m here in this place again

How did I manage to mess up one more time?

This pattern seems to be the story of my life

Should have learned this lesson by the thousandth time

'Cause I promise myself I wouldn't fall

But here I've fallen

I guess I'm not as strong as I thought

All I can do is cry to You

Oh God You have to save me

You're my last and only hope

All my right answers fail me

I can't seem to make it on my own

I always thought that I would be strong enough

What made all of them fall couldn't take me down

Yeah, did I think that I was above it all

I have learned that pride comes before the fall

I can't promise that I won't fall

'Cause here I've fallen I know I'm not as strong as

I thought All I can do is cry to You

당신은 비 후에 나의 햇빛이다

너는 내 운명
내 유일한 선샤인
당신이있어 행복 해요
하늘은 회색 때
친애하는 거 몰라
얼마나 사랑하는지 알아
내 선샤인 멀리하지 마십시오

Part of life?

was a great day today.... until i received one news from someone.
my heart sank.
my heart is trouble.

is that just part of life?
i hope is not true.
i dont want.

I REALLY DONT WANT.

whatsoever, i got to face it.

Enough?

It wasnt a great week this week.

Was a tiring week. Emotional down.
m not alright, seriously.. im not alright.

Drank and cried out that made me felt much better.

But the problems will always be there.

How i wish i can leave this place and go to the other place that no one would know me. I am emotional tired. I need a break! How strong the shell it can be, someday it will sure crack.

Im tired, im tired, im tired.

Sick of everything, everything, everything.

I am dragging myself each new day to carry on what im doing now.

I started to hate it instead of enjoying.

Can You lift me high up once again?

dbl O

Ladies Night.

Get the party started!!!

Girls just need to enjoy!

it was fun

just party with my girls

i love them >3

abandon

Gid was telling me of this story i long heard before.

[g]/deoN... says:
there is this man
[g]/deoN... says:
he died
[g]/deoN... says:
then he went heaven
[g]/deoN... says:
God showed him his life
[g]/deoN... says:
he was walking along the beach
[g]/deoN... says:
and he could see 2 set of foot prints
[g]/deoN... says:
but at this most difficult times..
[g]/deoN... says:
he tot God abandoned him bcoz he could oni see 1 set
[g]/deoN... says:
but God told him dat i was carryin u at ur hard times

It ponder me, once again i need to find back His love; His Perfect Love.

shut up and dance

Ladies Night- Double O.

we drink out heart out,

we dance our heart out,

we sing our heart out,

'some' smoke their heart out.

Shu Fen, Rachel and me

Rachel, me, Wenwen, Shufen and sing yee.

Me and weiqing.

Shuli and malau(WQ).

Happy to get to know some new girlfriends.
Michelle, Cheryl, Wenwen and Sing yee.



Glad that i'm out with these crazy girlfriends.
Shuli, Shufen, Rachel and Weiqing.



Ladies, next wed again! :D