An Art?

Came across this from somewhere. Wonder why did people wanna do this to themself. God gave you a good nice body skin. Why go and remove it? Some even put metal thing in their skin, i saw! kind of crazy.

Sorry, I think is disgusting. I dont know how to appreciate this art.

Perfect love embracing the worst of me

Pastor Ruth's message today was good.

It spoke to my heart.

Well, when i'm on my way to church today. My heart felt tired and numb. And i felt wanting to be rebllious and disobey God. Questions and doubt kept coming here and there. What if i stop attending church and do things that is not pleasing to God. Will He give up and let go of me? Will He cares? I know is wrong to think this way. Perhaps im tired. I just feel soooo inferior, the inferiority complex that in me. Everyone is all better than me. I'm the worst. Comon, of cos God will choose people who are talented and gorgeous. Who am i that He will choose me? This is what i always think. I know God is not like that. He use people that pure in heart and people that willing to serve and let God use them. But somehow reality brings me to think all the negatives.

Is 'Doubt' a sin? If your 'doubt' lead you to 'questions' and your 'questions' lead to the 'answer' then your 'doubt' is a good one and bring you closer to God.

Is my doubt a good one?

He cares enough to rescure from guilt of the past. "All sin is forgiven and forgotten by God". With Jesus in our lives, sin has it in control

"To forgive is to set a prisoner free and discover that "the presioner was you"."

Yea, God forgiven. Let go the guilt of the past and move on.

"Most people lives as if this life were a permanent arrangement".

In the Bible, it says "our days are numbered, not numberless".

We must live as our life is numbered, we might just suddenly die of car accident or whatever. So whenever we can serve God, just be willing to let God use. You will never know when's God gonna finish your earthly journey.

It's Your stubborn love that never let go of me

I don't understand how You can stay

Perfect love embracing the worst of me

Something missing.

Ahyyyoo, my com just shuted down and i havent have the chance to save my blog entry yet!Oh GOODNESS!!!!

OKAY, i shall summarise the entry i wanted to post about. Actually i was gonna post some not important one, since now i lazy to type out again then i shall not type out. HA!

Oh, just came back from cousin's 21st birthday. Was ooo...Okays. Still a not bad family gathering after all. But something is missing....): Hope by next year, i will find it (:

My mum was telling me, think your next year 21st birthday celebration. You will need to book 2 function rooms. 'Cause i know you've many friends you gonna invite. HA. Who knows, maybe im not gonna celebrate it? Maybe just a mini one will do? 'Cause im too lazy to entertain friends, somemore many different groups of friends?

Oh, i fell off from swing today. It was embarrassed, dont know if anyone saw? HA. I picked myself up and continues to swing again despite of whether i have injure myself? 'Cause i felt a little pain on my knee. Is the same thing to me in life, no matter how many or million times i fall off, i picked myself up and continues to stand strong. Although i've many wounds over my body, i know my Creator takes my wounds away and heal it by His love.

The brokeness; the pains, He took it from us.

Human's love is selfish,
Human's love do fail,
Only God's love is un-conditional that bare through all and never ever fails.
The only God that we can relay on. Lord Christ Jesus!



Who am i that You should save me?
Who am i that You shlold love me?
Who am i that You should lay your life for me?

5 Guys you shloud never date

5 Guys You Should Never Date:

1. Married men
2. Dominator
3. Broken Heart
4. Smoothie
5. The Drain


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Steamboat

Steamboat buffet with daries Candy.

Just the two of us. Haha, the last time we had steamboat was dozen years ago when we're still in our old school days. I still remembered, we and the classmate always have steamboat yearly for cny and Mr low (xiao wen) will treat everyone. And there was another occasion that we and some of the closer friends celebrated my 15th birthday at some steamboat restaurant. It was fun and we all had a good time (: though i dont like steamboat, just that i loves the gathering and bonding's. It brings everyone together, stronger bonding and gossiping together. Haha.

7-8 years of friendship dosent come so easy. There're up and down period. We quarrel, we disagree with each other, we used ro chase after the same guy we liked, we used to skip school together, we late together, we gossip together, we give in to each other and we be true to each other. Even though we have our own life now, different job but we still make time and be time for each other. MY BFF. ILOVECANDYANGFENGYA! HAHA

Modern beds

Check this out,

16 of the most extreme modern beds you'll ever see. (:

link here (:

Dishearten

Suddenly feel so dishearten...

Broken heart one more time

Pick yourself up, why even cry

Broken pieces in your hands

Wonder how you'll make it whole

You know, you pray

This can't be the way

You cry, you say

Something's gotta change

And mend this porcelain heart of mine

Someone said "A broken heart Would sting at first then make you stronger"

You wonder why this pain remains

Were hearts made whole just to break

Creator only You take brokenness

And create it into beauty once again

Someone sent me this mail. "How to write a resignation letter?". I think is kinda funny.

Short but not formal….

A bit formal…..

Formal One……
Or this one?

And i came across this from some website, dont know is that real? If real, it is a sad thing.

http://infohost.nmt.edu/~tbushnell/Life/Blog.html

substitute

As i walked pass the places that we went, many memories just flow back.
How i wish that i can turn back to the past but it was all too late.
All because i am too stubborn.

Right now, i dont want to regret everything that i do.
I dont want to live with regrets.

I dont want to be a substitution.
Sorry i've to keep my distance from you.
'Cause only by doing that then i can make you appreciate me more, if not you will take me for granted. Sorry, im evil!.
I know by doing that, i might be losing contact with you and soon we wont talk.
COZ...

I just have to protect my heart.
I dont want to let it be hurt again.
and a substitute.

Her cries

A girl that have so many dreams in her heart
So many of it that hasn't come true yet
Will she continues to dream about her dreams?
Or just let it pass day by day?

She yearn for it
She cries out loud
She cross her finger, bow and pray to her Heavenly Father

Will her Heavenly Father hears her?
Will her Heavenly Father bless her?
Will her Heavenly Father be there for her?
Will her Heavenly Father keep His promises?
Will her Heavenly Father forsake her?
Will her Heavenly Father shortchange her?


This is what her Lord God Jesus say to her:

I willl always hear you, even your deeper secret.
I will always bless you, bless you whatever you asks for.
I will always be there for you with my hands to catch you and my arm to embrace you when i know you're falling .
I will always keep my promises, for my promises is never be broken.
I will never forsake you, for you are my precious daughter.
I will never shortchange you, I will give you abundantly.

All because.... my love is unconditional and I LOVE YOU TOO MUCH!



Someday i know my dreams will come true, for i know His assurance for me is real and truth. I just need to wait patiently upon His promises for me.

As i blogging this post, God minister to me once again of this song " I live to know You".
This song brought me to tears, every questions that i asked from God, is all answered.
Just the reason, "I live to know You more".

Standing in Your presense

Lord my heart and life are changed

Just to love You and to live to

See Your beauty and Your grace

Heaven and earth cry out Your name

Nations rise up and see Your face

And Your Kingdom is establish

As I live to know You more

Now i will never be the same

Spirit of God my life You've changed

And I will forever sing Your praise

I live to know You more

I live to know You more

You've called me, I will follow

Your will for me i'm sure

Let Your heartbeat be my heart's cry

Let me live to serve Your call

Thank You, Daddy. =)

I just need to protect my heart.

fighting againest virus.

Finally i went to visited the doc.

.... Cause i got nothing to do after work so must well go visit doc as i am still sick.

I asked the doc, "can you give me medicine that dont cause me drowse?"

And he said, " then i give you MC, can rest at home. It makes you drowse so that you can have enough rest".

Then i said, "huh, NO NEED MC." Haha.

Meiyi dear brought me this chocolate and secrectly put this inside my bag. Haha.

She wrote: Hi! Guess who am I? LOL. Take Care OK! =) Rest Well :P

THANKS DEAR.

My Adore NOW:

I find it soooo cute... I wanna collect it all!!! But that costed me $2 (just a key chain head)

I didnt know that my laptop actually have a magnet thingy on the webcam area.

Brought this top from Cine while i having break so went for a mini shopping with joo peng. :P

Do i look scary? HAHA. Took this after i finished my dragon fruit. The fruit make my tounge purple pink. Didnt know that fruit can make me look like kanna poison. Haha. Thats cool. And btw, i didnt put on make up at all. Pure face without make up. Hees. So can you see i've no eyebrow? (See sera, this picture cannot seee my eyebrow, am i daring?) Dont ever copy this picture! Is an ugly picture i ever have so far. LOL.

Im gonna sleep, eventually the doc still gave me the medicine that will cause me drowsy!

Fainting sooon. BYE!

FIND REST MY SOUL
IN CHRIST ALONE
KNOW HIS POWER
IN QUIETNESS AND TRUST

I WILL BE STILL AND KNOW YOU ARE GOD

All About You.

Im coming back to the heart of worship

And it's all about You Jesus

Im sorry for the things i've made it

When it's all about You

It's all about You Jesus

Sick

I am sick.

Am down with flu, cough and headaches.

But im still eating well like normal, although i cant taste the food.

Normally people always tend to lose weigh when they're sick but for me is different. Still the same. Haha. I been saying that i wanna on diet, but i didnt do it. No determination. 'Cause i think food is to enjoy. I love eating! Eating and shopping is my fav everyday hobbies. Haha.

Well, i know i gotten to rest now. Working morning shift tml.

I NEED LOADS OF REST! hees.

Hope tml wont be a terrible day for me. 'cause of my lovely nose. FLU!. Horrible!

Hold me tight, i need You to catch me.

I'm coming back.

What will my life journey be like? I've no idea.

I know that God's plan for me will be awesome.

Although this road i'm going to go through will be tough, I know He will neve leave me alone. For I will 'Never Alone'.

He will be there, for I believe. Im coming back to You, it will never be too late. 'Cause Your door is always open for me.

As I long for home

'Cause this road is hard

When I feel so far

God I'm crying out tonight

'Cause I've given You my life

But I'm tired and I'm missing what's behind

So once more here's my life

On the day that You called my name

All that I knew changed

I found when I said yes that I'd never be the same

Though the call is hard

You are worth it all

Even when the tears are falling

When I find I fear the calling

You remind me

Words You've spoken over my life

Here's my life, take it and renew it

I need You in everything i do

I need You to love me

I won't keep my heart from You this time

I want to be the one that chase after Your heart

I have wasted so much time

Pushing You away from me

I just never saw how You could cherish me

'Cause You're a God who has all things and still You want me

I Love You, Daddy.

Creator only You take brokenness

And create it into beauty once again

Little India (idiot)

Inianvan

Nice food (:

Met mag mama at her house today, brought my nail polish thingy and help her paint. Haha.. Then headed to little india (idiot) for late lunch at my fav place. "inianvan" (dont know issit spell it like that). The food there is delicious! *2 thumbs up* Haha. I even use my finger to eat, i didnt use fork or spoon. It was fun. :D Then after our late lunch we went to shop for awhile there to look for mag's bridal stuff. Cant wait for mag's wedding man. hees. Mag and the family are going India this June. I wanna go too.. Haha. Hope it wont cost much....

Thanks God, i met mag out. I always tell mag my feelings and the problems that been trouble me. She never stop encourage me, always tell me the right way to do. She knows me inside out, nothing i can hide from her. Haha. lovehersomuchh!

im sorry

God, i know i been running away from you for the past few weeks. I chose to run away from your will to me. Not to pray and read your word, i just afraid. Dont want to talk about it and face it. I really dont know what to do... Well, i can always encourage people that You alway be there for them and all verse from Bible but why cant i do that to myself? I know im wrong oh God, angry with you pissed with myself. You know oh God, its hurts me so much to be angry with you. I feeling so terrible that i have to acting so alright of my life and to be happy with it. Indeed, i am not. Feeling so lousy.. During CC's worship last sunday, teared.

He's the lord of the sunshine and Lord of the Rain. He's the Lord of good time and Lord of the Pain. He's the Lord of the mountain and Lord of the sea. He's Lord of the music, He's Lord of the Children, The Lord of YOU and ME.

Devoted to You, i give you my life. I will make this choice now and forever. So that i can always says, i will Love and serve You each day.

13hrs 30mins of sleep

Know what, i had 13hrs 30 mins of sleep!!
was terrible tired yesterday, reached home at around 9pm after my work ended at 630pm.
Oh, i went to shop with joo peng after work for awhile and he brought a fcuk shirt. Is very nice, i like it too.. Too bad, i dont have bf to buy for if not i will just buy. Is cheap, cos' its sales item. Worth the buy lar.

When i reached home i just lied on my sofa to watch tv and online for 15mins? Then fell asleep while watching tv. I was really tired, slept from 10 plus or 11pm to next day 1230pm. Think is my 1st time slept for so long ever since i started working 1 year plus back. I had a good sleep, enjoyed so much that i dont want to wake up but i have to....due to my work start at 2pm. If not i think i will probably sleep until 5pm? 18hrs of sleep? HAHA. But i had headaches during work and i still feel kinda sleepy, maybe sleep too much lar? Haha.. Seriously, i am very proud of myself for my 13hrs of sleep. Cos' normally i dont. I even msged sera and ant to tell them i slept for 13hrs 30 mins last night. Ant's replied: yayaya, i havent slept since yesterday. Oh i pity him lar! LOL.

Winnie babe is in Japan now.. Im all alone. So bored at work! She only come back next Tues... I miss her so much lar. Now only left me with all the guys in the shop! Before winnie goes, she told the guys not to bully me (yalor they always bully me). Then the guys says "jiawen is the one that bully us" OH man, since when i bully them? NONSENSE arhh... Work is bored without winnie babe, thanks God still have Yati and Dian at heeren. They will call me very often to talk to me and go break together. Is better to work with girls than guys. They just know how to make my blood boiling. Haha. Well, when winnie is not around, im the second in-charge in the shop already. Have to due with more things, thats mean more stress! Do settlement and all. Have to ask the staff do this do that so they will know what to do. Now i know why Alex always so kan chong already. i got kan chong too but lesses kan chong than him. HA. He kan chong spider lar..

Off tml, FINALLY.

im happy that i able to off on this coming GOOD FRIDAY and EASTER SUNDAY! So i can spend more time with my church mates (: LOVE.

They're my JOY.

Children Church

Sera and me

Can see my difference kind of smile? HAHA.

My two pretty princess. Alicia and CoCo

JOEL PHUA

My Fav Boy...

Candies.my colourful candies for them (:

SHOPPING

She just wanna enjoy her life :D

winnie babe and me.

LOVE LOVE LOVE!!
Hello, that's me when i was young. HAHA.
Candy Ang my BFF.
Met her for dinner, shopping and heart to heart talk at coffee bean on monday. I just love talking to her! my best ever friend (: LOVE.

SHOPPING SHOPPING SHOPPING!!!



i been very addicted to shop and shop!


spent dont know how much this week already.


not just this week, ever since when i come back from thai during last year Nov.


spend and spend and spend!!! OMG. SAVE ME! its has been out of hand. NOT GOOD!




Now winnie babe calls me "shopping queen". Friends that knows me, i can shop 24 hrs! I can shop and shop till i forgot my lunch and dinner. HAHA. and i been shopping online! thats bad!